"I DONT WANNA BE HERE!"

" Is she coming back?.."

Ive always liked the night the way you could hear the crickets and the wind blowing but sleep is one thing that I think I love more then anything else the way you can lay there peacefully and let your mind be at peace . Well that's what sleep should be mine is my dad yelling at the Tv all night he hasn't been the same since my mom died

My mom died from liver cancer her and my dad always liked to drink for some reason and they were what people called " fun drunks " when they were drunk they would party all night but never really acknowledge me and my sister who were trying to sleep for school the next day .

My sister and I are very close . We'll use to be after my mom had died my dad became angry at the world and at us I looked similar to my mother but not exactly I had brown wavy long hair that when brushed dry would frizz everywhere I had dark blue eyes and my skin is rather tan .

I had a small build because my parents were always to busy buying booze to buy us food so me and my sister had to try to find food wherever we could . My sister was loving and kind she was everything you would want in a women

She had my mothers eyes lively and free but gloomy and dark when my father would throw a tantrum and yell at us saying "everything was our fault " and "only if we wouldn't had been born" that should hurt coming from your own father but I learned to not give a carp what that drunk said .

But my sister, Lana well she still could put a smile on and act like my fathers words didn't matter but I know they did to her , I had gotten " the bad genes" brown hair and dark blue eyes eyes and my sister well she had blonde hair like my mother and greenish blue eyes like my father with light tanned skin I always felt rather basic next to her but you can't have everything in life I guess .

My whole life was turned upside from one night though , it took one night for everything to be taken from me . I almost forgot my name is Haven which you would think would make me "like an angel " but I had always been angry at everyone ,but my sister Until she left .

It was a warm evening like any other June night I was getting ready for bed as. I heard the tv blasting from the other room I looked at my sisters bed since we share the same room and she was kinda just sitting there quiet . " Lana are you ok? " I asked " yeah I'm fine " she said quiet and plain which was very much unlike her energetic self .

" you sure ? You can tell me if something is bothering you ." " IM fine " she spat I just wanted to know if she was ok. I shoved any feelings down and just looked at her and nodded and got into my bed . As I was about to close my eyes I saw her backpack next to her I didn't think much of it " good night" I said " night said Lana with a slight smile that I knew was sad

It didn't take long for me to fall asleep as I drifted off all I could think about was how much I hated it here and how much , I don't wanna be here but at least my sister was here with me so we had each other right ?

As I'm sleeping I here my sisters window quietly slide open I've always been a light sleep so I immediately open my eyes Me and Lana make eye contact as I look down and see her with a bag

" Lana what are you doing why are you leaving !?" I tried to yell but stay quiet she gave me a sympathetic look " Haven I'm sorry I can't take dad constantly yelling and hollering at me he makes my life hell and I can't take it .. I really can't .." I felt mad she hadn't had it as bad as me my , dad would smack me around like a rag doll I thought. But I knew that wasn't a good or reasonable thought so I pushed it down .

" You can't leave me here ! What am I gonna do how am I gonna make it without you ??" I said my voice breaking as she came back in I've never been a crier and Lana knew that as she walked over to me she gave me a hug a tight one as I sat on my bed she whispered in my ear " you know I'll be back for you I would never leave you here long with him you know that . " I believed her I really did ..

" o-ok pinky promise me you will"I said pinky promise were ultimate to me and my sister she never broke one . " promise she said grabbing my pinky with hers "  "a thought popped into my brain would she ever break a promise ? I ignored that thought and watched as she climbed into the night I watched as she ran to who knows where I felt tears prickling down my cheeks " is she coming back ..? " I thought I climbed back into bed and tried to sleep

But the thought of life without her made my stomach turn .

" promise's are made to be broken " I said quietly. As other tear went down my face

My FIRST CHAPTER I know it's not that good but I'm trying here and I really wanna write this so 👋☺️ I'll try to make chapter 2 later on cause I'm hungry btw if your here from my tt I see you 👀

MWAH💕