"I DONT WANNA BE HERE!"

" im so sorry im so fucking sorry "

as I turned that corner I was met with the sight of ponyboy he was in the ground with a socs on top of him as I stood there for a split second I heard him scream "DALLAS JOHNNY HELP  !"  The socs covered his mouth as they brung the blade to his neck the moon shinned on the scene .

I immediately ran and jumped on top of that socs  back " GET THE HELL OFF HIM " the socs was drunk I could smell it on him i somehow pried him off ponyboy and took him down to the ground with me .

I guess I didn't realize the other socs in the car cause in the next second. " YOU NASTY GREASER BITCH GET OFF HIM " the socs then began trying to get out the car  as I  tried to take the blade out of the other socs hand  i looked up ponyboy was looking at me and i looked back I mouthed the words "Run" I don't know why i did , did i want to die or something.

But even if pony did stay i think we both would of died i watched as he immediately got up and started running towards the drive in we weren't to far i felt myself get kicked then a crack "oh shit I thought I'm pretty sure I just broke a rib " but that's what I thought what I actually said was " AGGHHGGGHGG YOU FUCKING -" the other socs took the blade from the other and got on top of me .

He put it to the top of my eyebrow and slowly began to pull it down the amount of pain i felt in the moment  was unbelievable I wanted to scream but I just fell into darkness he had his knee on my chest I couldn't breath " welp this the end " I thought not appropriate for the moment but one other thought did pop up " god I wish I could of seen her one more time "

Why did I still even think about her . I felt the socs get ripped off me as I laid there I could hear running and yelling  I opened my eyes slightly to see THE one and only Dallas Winston one of the coldest people I knew of and I could see him beating the living hell out of those  socs .

Pony ran to my side " HAVEN CMON WAKE UP !"  I could feel the blood running down my face and how it hurt to breath   "ughhh "  was the only thing I managed to get out " SHE STILL ALIVE "  " Dally help me carry her !"  I heard my pony say I felt strong arms lift me up without a struggle .

And Dallas Winston began to run somewhere with me I hoped it was a hospital  " Is she breathing " asked someone quickly but slightly nervous I could hear Dallas huffing as he ran
"I'm not a doctor " Dallas said .

Suddenly we came to a hault I opened  my eyes slightly to see a small white house " get the damn gate "Dallas said I saw pony immediately open it and then he ran up to a door and all I could see was a bright light and then darkness .

As a white light flashed I looked around I was in a white room "what in the world .." I thought
I then saw my mother in her hospital bed eyes yellow and skin I felt the pain in my heart rise I didn't cry when she died but god did a part of me die

My mother was for sure not best she wasn't the worst person or mother yeah she would drink but would still sometimes try to take me and my sister away somewhere when my dad got mad she was loving and kind before my dad .

And the alcohol .

She met my gaze " haven .. " she crooked "yes momma " she grabbed my face and pulled me and whispered "it ain't your time baby " and let go of me " mom please it's not yours" I said I knew she was already dead but couldn't hurt to try .

I say my sister was the only one to ever love me but I know my mom did to at some point .

I watched as she slowly started to fade away and I couldn't help but see that beautiful smile she has .
That dream or sign made me never wanna drink if I ever had children I wouldn't want them to see me like that death is horrible but involuntary

I slowly started to regain conscious I could hear someone by my bed " please don't let her die please god ."

" I'm so sorry I'm so fucking sorry "

I opened my eyes to see ...

I'm so devious 😜

Who is it gonna be guys 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🤪🤪🤪🤪😔😚😚😚

Also some background info if it doesn't make sense

3rd person point of view ( I think )

Haven and Lana's mom was a drunk and let the addiction of drinking get to her but she did try to be a good mother when she wasn't drunk and haven still loved her since she didn't hit her , would try to save her if her dad tried to And when she was loving and kind to her when she was feeling anything . Their mom also tried to get clean multiple times but failed since their dad refused to so she would always relapse on drinking she also never told haven nothing bout her looks other then slurred comments like " you LOok AMAzibggg sweetie "
She was never a mean drunk but it would have been better if she wasn't one at all . When she died haven and Lana stayed with her for days while their dad went out and partied her mom died sick and hurting Lana bawled but haven just held her mother's hand and then let go .