F.L.A.W Series Book 4: SAPPHIRE

Chapter Thirty-Three

I guess, this is my punishment.

Iyon ang nasa isip ni Sapphire habang nakatulala siya sa labas ng bintana ng kwartong tinutuluyan niya. She's hurting because she knows that she's the reason why the man she love is hurting. It is plain torture for both of them because of what happened in the past.

Umalis siya sa pad ni Finnegan dahil alam niyang nasasaktan pa din ito sa nalaman. Kahit hindi ito nagsasalita ay ramdam niya ang sakit na nararamdaman nito. At kahit hindi siya nito kinomprontang muli ay ramdam niya ang bigat ng kalooban nito na kahit wala siyang narinig na paninisi ay alam niyang naroroon pa rin iyon sa kaibuturan ng damdamin nito.

They can never deny the fact that she was the one who killed his mother. She can never change what happened and she can never wash her hands of the guilt of what she did. Naulila ito sa ina nang dahil sa kanya at hindi iyon maaaring balewalain lang.

That is why she decided to leave him be for now and stayed at one of her safe places near Atlanta. Mas gusto niyang mapag-isa rin muna imbes na tumira sa kapatid niyang si Diamond dahil apektado din siya sa nangyari.

Limang araw na ang lumipas ngunit ni isang tawag ay wala siyang natatanggap mula sa binata. Nag-aalala siya ngunit wala siyang lakas ng loob pa para harapin ito at para pormal na humingi ng tawad. Thankfully, Agent Ryder immediately flew back to check on his friend. Sakanya lang sila nakakakuha ng balita tungkol sa kalagayan ng nobyo at kahit papaano ay nakakabawas iyon sa pag-aalala niya.

Her daze was cut off when her phone rang. It was Striker calling.

"Hey." Bungad ng kapatid sa kabilang linya. "I'm outside your place right now."

Doon niya napagtanto na hindi man lang niya namamalayan na may tao na pala sa labas ng tinutuluyan niya. Kung nagkataon na ibang tao at kalaban ang sumugod sa kanya ay hindi na siya nakapagprepara sa magiging atake sa kanya dahil wala siya sa tamang katinuan.

"What's up?" Tanong niya pagkabukas niya ng pintuan para papasukin ang kapatid. "You got some news now?Any leads on who shot Kazakova?"

"Nothing. Still clueless and Cornejo doesn't want to cooperate." Sagot ni Yasi.

"Okay." Sagot niya sabay kunot noo bago muling nagsalita. "Then why are you here?"

"It's because I'm worried about you, Saph."

"I'm fine." Mabilis niyang sagot bago tinalikuran ito para magpunta sa kusina. "You want some coffee?" Alok niya sa kapatid at saka inabala ang sarili sa paggawa ng kape upang makaiwas sa paksang nagbabadyang magsimula.

"You don't have to hide it from me." Ani Diamond na sinundan siya sa kusina. "I know how you're feeling right now. And I know that you're blaming yourself-"

"Who should I blame then?" Putol niya sa dalaga at marahas na nilingon. "The Webers? The FLAW organization? Yeah, let's blame them. If it weren't for them, we wouldn't be a killer, right? But during those times, when we killed our targets, who really pulled the trigger? Hindi ba tayo? Tayo mismo ang gumawa niyon diba? We killed them with our bare hands. It is our hands that are stained with their blood. So at the end of it all, we are partly to blame as well and it's because we were a coward. We were afraid to die that's why we follow every order- even killing people." She paused for a bit. "Yeah, we always say that we did what we had to do to survive. But it's not an excuse to justify our actions."

"Saph-"

"I killed his mother. I'm the one to blame." Hindi na niya pinagsalita pa ang kapatid. "My very first target. My first mission on becoming a full pledge Gem. And it's the reason why he's suffering all these years. Alam mo ba na ang rason kung bakit siya pumayag na maging informant ng organisasyon niyo? Upang mahanap ang sagot kung bakit pinatay ang mama niya. He wanted to know who killed her and it turned out that it was his biological father who ordered the hit."