When I feel, I feel too much. When I care, I care too quickly. When I cry, I express my pain through tears while my mouth doesn't dare get out the words so complicated to verbalize. When I love, I love too blindly and end up broken into pieces, finding myself grabbing every little pieces left of my heart gluing them all back together by myself feeling awful for how I am. "Why do I care so much?" I ask myself. "Why do I have to love so deeply? What's wrong with me? Why do I get attached so quickly? Why do I always end up finding myself destroyed like this?!" I guess I'll never know. When I try to stay cold and distant, I just can't because that's not who I am and how I am, it's like my brain be like "Be cold and distant so you won't be hurt anymore" and my heart answers "You're better than that, love, you're not like this, that's now who you are."
