I smile to hide the emptiness I feel constantly, I smile to aboid people around me to worry about me and even when they ask about how I'm doing I simply answer "Oh i'm okay don't worry!" When really I can literally go through hell and just act like I'm living my best life. It's a reflex for me to put other's needs over mine because I feel unworthy of other people's time, and think it's a waste of time even trying to help me and I feel bad when I ask for minimum of support from anyone. I show strength by smiling and acting like everything is okay when deep down I can be in pieces crashed by life.
