A New Beginning

Chapter 17: Trust Me

Y/N's POV

Are you seriously expecting me to trust a killer?

Nah, nevermind. He's my boyfriend.

I was so confused. Was I supposed to trust him? Or was I supposed to trust my gut feeling? Or was it just my trust issues playing with my mind? I was honestly so torn with my own decisions. At a point, I just had a mental breakdown.

I leaned against the closed bathroom door and was gonna bawl my eyes out. But the moment I saw my reflection I just went, "Y/N you look pretty."

Is it just me or do I look much more babygirl when I cry?

I sighed and backed away from the mirror. I crossed my arms trying to think rationally. The dude was hot and it was hard not to trust him. But the dream that I had, no the night terror that I had made a little bit sense didn't it?

If he was insane enough to kill those two boys who took interest in me and probably ruined the lives of whoever else tried to interfere, wasn't it just normal if he would go to the extents of killing me too just to keep me with him?

My thinking only got darker and darker. Was that happening because I helped him get rid of Kaga's headless body?

I heard Ayato knocking against the bathroom door which made me gasp a little in surprise.

"Are you okay in there, Y/N?"

I stayed silent for a while trying to question if I had been there for too long but then again he couldn't go by a minute without me.

"Mhm, yeah, fine. Just some girl stuff."

Did I seriously say girl stuff?

I tried not to laugh at my own phrasing and turned the tap on trying to create a noise distraction so my heavy breaths couldn't be heard on the other side of the door. I looked at my reflection once more and I could see the tiredness etched onto every feature of my face.

"Woman up, Y/N."

I told myself and opened the door, stepping outside so confidently that I slipped and fell right in his arms after perfectly head butting the poor guy in the face.

"Ouch, what's the rush?"

Ayato caught ahold of me and smirked a little despite his slightly bleeding nose.

"Sorry, sorry. I'm such a klutz."

He rolled his eyes playfully and set me right on my own two feet. Ayato ruffled my hair a little and then crossed his arms surveying me with his sharp eyes which were laced with suspicion.

"You've been acting quite bizarre today and I can tell there's something bothering you," Ayato reasoned and I had to say; the guy was right. Unfortunately.

"Yeah."

I only managed to get out one word of response which didn't seem to satisfy him.

He sighed.

He picked me up and put me on the bed, Luna following close by and mewing at me in an attempt to get his attention which she got almost all the time.

Ayato picked her up too and set her on my lap while he paced around the room.

"Go ahead. Tell me. What's bothering you?"

I shook my head with a deep sigh as I instinctively played with my cat. I mean, kitty. Otherwise it just sounds wrong...

"No, it's nothing too serious..."

"Eitherways... I want to know what this totally-not-serious topic is."

Ayato stared at me with a gaze that could cut.

I sighed and I was gonna say it finally.

"I think you wanna kill me."

"What?"

Ayato's face contorted in astonishment.

He furrowed his eyebrows and sighed as he sat down beside me. I scooted a little to give him more space when he did so.

"Im sorry you feel that way."

He gently touched my arm.

"Listen, Y/N, I won't force you to trust me. That's something that completely depends on you."

He smiled at me and pulled close in a soft embrace. I didn't protest and slowly leaned into his touch savoring the warmth from his body.

"Thank you, Ayato."

"You mean the world to me, Y/N."

I slowly pulled Ayato in a hug. I felt like I could trust this guy with my heart now. With my heart and soul. He was so kind and patient with me.

It all felt surreal.

Ayato hugged me back and whispered in my ear.

"Y/N. People often say that before a person dies their happiest moments flash before their eyes. When I die, I want your hand in mine as you say 'I do' flashing before my eyes. That would make the happiest memory for me."

A/N: I was supposed to publish this chapter way way before but college started again so...