Tara's pov
After the sleepover the next day, I said goodbye and went back to my dorm. I walked in, expecting Johnnie to still be sleeping. I took out my keys and was about to unlock the door when I realised it was never locked. I opened the door slowly and peeked inside. "Johnnie? Where are you?" I say as I walked in. I opened the bathroom door to find it unlocked. Where is he? I took out my phone and called him, but he didn't answer. I assumed his phone was dead and decided to go out to smoke. I went to the back of the school and my heart dropped when I saw.. Johnnie? I rushed to him and shook him vigorously while crying, " Johnnie? Johnnie is that you? PLEASE JOHNNIE WAKE UP.. JOHNNIE.. JOHNNIE!!" I cried as I hugged him and called an ambulance immediately.
-When the ambulance arrived at the scene-
They took Johnnie to the hospital immediately and I cried as I sat in the waiting room. This is my fault. I should've just stayed instead of going to that sleepover.
-later-
A doctor came out of the room. "Is he okay? Please tell me he is please," I said as I cried and shook the doctor. He told me that he was fine but had to stay in the hospital for awhile and said I could see him if I wanted to. I thanked him and went in to see Johnnie. I walked into the room and sat on a chair beside him. We sat in silence for a few minutes before Johnnie spoke, "..I'm sorry." I held back tears as I held his hand," it's okay, it's not your fault. But.. why? You know if anything you could come to me.. right? I'll always be here for you Johnnie and I want you to know that. Please..talk to me," I said. I looked at Johnnie's wrists, tears rolling down my face.
Johnnie's pov
I have felt this way since forever. I wanted to speak, but it hurts. There's so much I want to say, but I can't. No matter how much Tara comforts me, I just feel so alone and beat myself up so much. Life's just been so fucking shitty and I just can't take any of it anymore and have been getting worse as the days pass. I wish I could express my feelings but it's so hard to no matter who it is, even Tara. I keep a lot of things to myself and bottle it up but in reality Im going insane and don't know how much longer I can hold on for no matter the amount of comfort I get from anyone. I notice Tara looking at my scars, trying her best not to cry. I'm so grateful to have her in my life and I wish I could express how much she means to me. I gulped as I looked away with tears in my eyes. I don't deserve someone as amazing as her. "I'm sorry, I'll just leave you alone for now and come back to visit you tomorrow. Take care Johnnie. Just.. please try to get some rest okay? And if you ever need me, just remember I'm just a call away. Goodnight Johnnie," she said as she got up. I wanted to grab her, beg her to stay with me. I don't want to be alone. I feel so weak. I watched as she left the room sniffling, bursting into tears the second she closed the door. She probably thinks I'm an asshole. I'm sorry Tara.
-the next day- (sorry this chapter has so many time skips 😭)
They woke me up early and gave me my breakfast, biscuits and Milo. I stared at it blankly, zoning out. I was startled when I heard a knock on the door. It was Tara. "Hey..can I.. come in..?" She asked quietly. I nodded as she walked in and sat down beside me. "Did you get good sleep last night? Or if you're to tired you don't have to answer me," she asked. I didn't say anything. She understood that I didn't want to talk and opened the pack of biscuits and dipped it into the milo. "Please eat, even if it's just a small bite.. just try to okay?" She said as she fed it to me. After I ate everything, Tara stayed by my side 24/7, taking care of me and making sure I ate all my meals.
Jake's pov
(He doesn't know Johnnie attempted btw)
When I woke up, I turned around to see Diana missing. She left a note on my bedside that wrote:
Dear Jake,
Good morning darling<33 text me when you see this, let's meet at the library. I thought of some lines you could use to make a song if you want. See you soon:)
-Diana❤️
I smiled as I got up and texted her good morning. I quickly got ready and met her at the library. When I arrived, she waved at me and I went to sit down with her. She showed me some lines and we brainstormed more lyrics to match hers. For the next few days, we worked on the song together.
-after a month-
Johnnie and Tara haven't been in school for the past month.. weird. Wait, why do I care anyways? Whatever...
Word count: 901
Extra note from author (feel free to skip if u want, this message isn't part of the story so dw) :
First off I just wanna apologise that this chapter has so many timeskips😭 and ik this chapter doesn't make sense cause honestly let's be real there's no way you can jump off a building and be found hours later and still be alive💀 but Johnnie is the main character so there's no way pookie can die 🥰
