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/3/ How I Got This Way

'You are a victim of the rules you live by.'

—Jenny Holzer, artist and thinker

I used to believe that I was fully in control of everything I did. But the truth is, I wasn't. Most of my actions were driven by my subconscious mind, habits I didn't even realize I was following. 

There were moments in my life when I thought I was finally making decisions for myself. I believed I had those rare opportunities to choose what I wanted, but when they came, I acted impulsively and ended up making the wrong choices. Looking back at those times, I realized something important: I was the one at fault. No one else. As the saying goes, you deserve what you tolerate. I had chances to stand my ground but didn't—mostly because of fear.

Now, I want to change that. I want to transform myself into the best version of me, to stop at nothing until I become spectacularly, unapologetically myself. There's nothing cooler than seeing your entire life shift into something that truly reflects who you are. I'm burning with determination. For the first time, I feel a deep desire to correct my mistakes—whether in my mindset or in the direction of my life. I know I can do better than I was yesterday.

I've given myself a new challenge: to be a better version of myself every single day. I can't wait to see how my life will unfold. One of my biggest dreams is to become an engineer. I'm ready to tell my parents about it. If they disagree, I'll listen to their opinions, but if I'm certain about something, I don't let go easily. I'll still pursue my dreams, even if it means leaving some things---or even some people---behind for the sake of becoming who I'm meant to be.

I'm young, and while I still have the strength, I refuse to waste it. There must be a reason I'm here. Because if I were born into this world for nothing, then why am I even alive?

I may not have my calling figured out yet, but I do know one thing: I'm not meant to stay the way I am forever. Each day, I'll take a step forward. Each day is another chance to leap closer to the life I want.