Jungkook is dangerous when he's hurt. He can easily destroy everything around him. Friendships, work, family. But he doesn't. Instead he destroys himself.
His whole body tingled as if thousands of ants crawled on every spot of his skin. His beautiful black eyes had turned red and tired after sniffing the deadly white powder off his desk.
Running a tattooed hand through his messy hair, Jungkook let out a loud groan and threw the pack of cocaine on the wall.
Bad old habits.
He used to be an addict once. In high school where things got tough. All the pressure he received from his strict parents and the high expectations everyone had from him ruined Jungkook bit by bit.
Toxic friends, unloving parents and the unlimited hours he spent locked up in his room were all just too much for a teenage boy who just wanted to live.
Freedom.
Jungkook longed for it more than anything else. To act carefree and do stupid things with real friends. Make countless of happy memories, take silly photos.
All this. Just normally live.
Instead he acted stupid and immature. Doing every bad thing his old friends did.
Like drinking and doing drugs in some wild parties.
Jungkook passed the hardest moments alone while everyone around him thought he was fine and happy. So out of it.
Fortunately, in college he stopped. Jungkook met the boys and slowly found himself again. His true self.
Not that desperate teenager who did everything he could to fit in and be cool.
It's crazy how your trauma isn't your fault but you got to take responsibility for your healing. And all that at a young age, at the most vulnerable state of your life.
Taehyung showed him what youth ment. You only get to be young once in your life anyway. So why not just push away every bad influence and every toxic person away?
That's exactly what he did.
Taehyung is the only one in the group who knows about this part of Jungkook's past. He respected his younger friend and kept his secret hidden well.
Jungkook doesn't even know why he's doing it again after so many years. It just came up in his mind. No too many problems or bad influences this time.
His guilt.
Jungkook's guilt caused this once more.
It's been more than two weeks since his private lesson with Nilah and his feelings are growing bigger and stronger every single day.
Except of how wrong it is to have romantic feelings towards his student he mostly felt as a bad friend.
Surely Taehyung wouldn't want his innocent little sister messing around with a drug addict. Old or not he still was one.
Looking at his best friend's eyes was becoming almost unbearable to him. Only if Taehyung knew about this he would cut him out entirely.
And Jungkook would deserve it.
That's what he fed his head up with. He had to stop somehow. But how could he? Those captivating eyes and bright smile of hers made him a prisoner.
Now that he spends time with Nilah out of school is only making it harder for Jungkook to distance himself away.
He doesn't even want to. Only a fool would willingly get Nilah out of their life.
She was like a star lost in the dark night sky. So small and delicate yet still managing to bring a little light.
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Fanfiction"And who are you to tell me what the hell is wrong or right for me, Mr. Jeon? " She raised her voice at him for the very first time as she tilted her neck to meet his burning eyes. "This is so wrong Nilah.... " he spoke not breaking their intense e...
