What Have We Done?..

this is all my fault.

They had an interview with one of the kbs. Well it didn't go well with the schedule. They were an hour late to the show which caused a delay. The director wasn't happy about it and yelled at the group which caused chan's head to pump pain. Chan wanted to yell and cry in pain but pushed it down his throat. "YOU GUYS ARE LITERALLY THINK YOUR TIME IS PRECIOUS THAN OURS!? HAVE AN HOUR LATE! STILL CAN'T BE HERE!" the Director yelled at the members as they were bowed to their knees level. Chan came up and kneel both knees down. "I'm so sorry sir. Please forgive me and them. Blame it on me. They have nothing to do with this. It will never happen again." "oh it won't! And be sure of that!" The director points his fingers at the eight members as the manager stepped up but said nothing. "Never and I mean never step in my studio again! You won't be in any variety or interviews here!" Staffs whispers around the studio as chan felt like jelly about to tilt over the moment he got up. He felt dizzy and wanted to get home and sleep. "Sir, please don't be harsh on them. It was a mistake". "A MISTAKE!? THEY ARRIVED AN HOUR LATE! I GAVE THEM A CHANCE BECAUSE THEIR STUPID BOSS BEGGED ME! AND THESE KIDS COULDN'T FIND THE GRATITUDE". The Director pointed out as chan felt guilty of the scene that happening and feels like it his fault.

He felt an huge liquid trying to escape mixing with bitter taste wanted him to gag and throw it up but made a huge risk and sallowed it as he winces at the small chunks touching his throat. Maybe if he would've woke up early then maybe they would all get here. Then he would've have checked on Felix and gave him medicine. They would be ruined by him. Everything would be ruined by him after all the years they built. Hyunjin was right after all. He was a burden. This is all my fault. "Hey, wasn't one of your members sick?" Chan couldn't speak and if he did he would puke so he nodded. "Selfish kids,their members can be dead like I care" the director said being frustrated and anger in his face clearly written. "Next time if you come begging again then be here fucking on time!" The director said not clearly what he just said. Chan could sense anger from his members and shivers but kept cool and bows. "I'm sorry sir." He didn't care. This is his group's career,the entertainment career.  They all bowed and rose up. Changbin was about to complain but chan pulled him back and bowed. "I'm so sorry sir. I will take the full responsibility and make up for my wrongdoings."

"Shameful leader." The director said with a harsh tough tone looking at chan with stoned eyes. "Sir! Aren't you going too far!?" The manager said couldn't believe he said that. "Get them out." "But sir-" "I said Get them Out!" As everyone left. During that time,the director changed his mind in the last second after calming down and accepting other make up scene. But during everything. Chan felt blurry and dizzy with black dots almost covering his sight. Every game he plays is getting him worked up with the lights set. He stutters,mix's up,shakes,cold,hot. The director doesn't cut of any of them probably to make him feel pathetic. When everything is over and it's time to leave. Chan let down some tears after everything. Everything couldn't get worse but slowly it will.

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