What Have We Done?..

"oh yeah!? You didn't?" And felt a feverish rage run up his throat. "You fucking didn't!? You kept me asking for last week's tracks!" Chan snaps back. "Minho wanted his dancing tracks songs. Changbin wanted to rearrange his solo songs. Jisung wanted to have lyrics and guidance for everything. Seungmin has four songs and Felix had three collabs that I needed to monitor for him. Jeongin wants to learn producing from the past months.!" He glares darkly at the others. "Can you still tell me I wasn't asked for anything? While I was rotting in my studio while making your guys request for you. And still expecting me to sleep for reasonable hours!?". The others looked away from those dark eyes not daring to look up. A horrible silence was flowing around none of them dared to speak as they never saw Chan explode at them. Chan was a person who exploded his anger at others,not to them. But this is drowning in freezing water from the hot flames that explode onto them.

"We never wanted to sacrifice your sleeping for any of those" changbin said softly cracking the silence that once filled the room five minutes ago. "Then WHAT you expect me to get done!?" Chan said feeling very hot as his head was hurting badly from his own shouting but couldn't help feel betrayed and felt like he wasn't as important as the others. "I go to MEETINGS from early to fucking afternoon. I stay in my studio for your requests. I have tons of COMEBACKS to do. FILMING to schedule,LIVES to  do. Then I have TRACKS to prepare, people to meet, collaboration to arrange". He throws out as if he was holding a whole paper in front of them to show them proof. "I don't give a damn single second to myself!  And you- you all still blaming me!? For working too hard for you!? Just to make sure you have some songs to sing and money to spend!?"

Felix came out of the room. Hearing yells and commotion from the outside of his room as he walks down the stairs to see what's was going on. He held onto the railing then to the wall for support as he tries to speak. "What's going on?" His voices was wobbly and unsupported by the throat pain.

No one dared to speak the conversation they had to him but Chan looked at him as a wave of jealousy courses through his body. Tears reset back to his eyes blurring his vision. His anger drains and turns to adrenaline which also washes away as a shivering corpse through his body as he lets out heavy panting. "I-i..I.." chan said can't finish his sentence as well he felt dizzy.  All he wants was what Felix had. He badly craves and wants to be treated like him. But knowing he doesn't deserve one piece of it. Not any of it. "Chan-hyung,we didn't mean to pressure you-" "stop." Minho said interrupting jeongin. "Stop talking"  Minho said as he turned to chan and walks slowly through the shards of glass. He doesn't break the contract of staring of his hyung. He noticed sweats beads slowly and some stuck of his forehead. He was pale but some of his color was thin and seen. Why didn't he noticed his shaking body and eyes that were heavy and foggy?
Chan doesn't listen or he just didn't hear Minho saying to step away from the glass that was scattered around his feet.

He doesn't even hear the words that went to coax of safety for him. His breathing ragged as air left his mouth and tears slowly spilling out of eyes slowly sliding under his chin. His hand and palm made it's way to a wall trying to hold his weight but already shaking. Dark spots scattered on his vision as everything tilts. Chan doesn't even recognize the feeling glass digging into his flesh when he fell. His name was being yelled out but he doesn't hear it. He couldn't even think anything. He couldn't even see Minho running trying to catch him avoiding the fact he's stepping glass. He doesn't even hear worried gasp or names of his spilled out of their mouth. Ringing is all he could hear. Minho looks at him with worried and guilty of not noticing his symptoms of helps. He felt anger rising but felt regrets of letting down his hyung. "What have we done?" Minho said as he carries chan out of the glass sea. As the others watched.

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