What Have We Done?..

why can't he be like him?.(short)

His fever isn't making him any better after what happened. He woke up and he was feeling like 18. He saw many people around him but he noticed one person. His friends. He smiled and ran up to them and hugged them. Then he saw his mom and teared up and went up to her and hugged her. He let go when he felt ready. But everything changed. He was at home with one of his friends. Baking cookies and chocolate cookies. He was now 17 and their were 18. He felt safe. Everything felt well. The smell was sweet and delicious. The smell was everything chan wanted to smell but it suffocating him. "I'm jealous" chan said without a thought to it. His friend turns back to him. "Why? What does he have that you can't have?" He said with a gentle warm smile. "He gets to be sick." Chan said finding answers he can't tell.

Then he smiled but his smile was tight. "Who's Felix?"
Chan looked at him like he couldn't answer that specific question. He stands up and turns around then everything changes again like turning back time. He's now five and his mom is kneeling by his side looking at him. "They are not your friends,chan" she says gently and warmly. As she cleans up his wounded elbow with sanitize as he whines at the sting that electric through his arms. He sinks the words his mom said as he shakes his head. "No no no they are!" He protests against the words that he's been told. They were much more to him. "But chan,they ignored you when you were trying to tell them that you were sick too." She said gently. Tender the fact he was five,the words his mother said were to define the truth. "They were only trying to care for him!" He said after all it makes more sense. "He's younger and I'm the oldest!". His mother shook her head as she looked at chan. Her eyes were covered by blurriness. "You deserve to be taken care of too."

When chan closes and opens his eyes. He finds himself in a filming set. A man who seems tall and bulky screaming at him. His fingers were pointing down at chan's child self. He was so tall that his face was covered by darkness. He screamed that the whole filming set was echoing and shouts threatening things to chan. Promising him that he would hurt everyone he loves. Chan begs and presses so hard both of his hands together and begs. No matter how much he did,the man screams never subsides. So enough, everyone crowds them and they were all faceless. They pointed fingers at chan one after another. Like dogs barks,they laugh after another like raging dogs barking at another dog. Chan cries and covers his ears begging to make everything stop. The laughs,screams,pain, sorrows. He just wants to be perfect for everyone so why can't he be like him?

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