Street Prophecy

Chapter 11

There was a ringing in my ears that just wouldn't stop. My hands are shaking and I can't control it, I wanted it to stop, I wanted this to stop. I look at the gun in my hands and I throw it to the ground. There's blood all over my hands, I look down and there's blood on my all white pant suit. Clapping, I hear clapping and that's what brings me back to my senses, I look over and I see Joseph laughing and clapping. "Yes. Yes, see that's what I'm talking about. Now I know I can trust you. Welcome to the business Taylor", Joesph said. He walked up put his hands on my shoulders and turned me around to face him. It was like I was having an out of body experience. 
"Fellas let her man and woman go", he said motioning his hand at his men. His men let Biggie and One Shot go and they walk over to me helping me walk. I couldn't move it was like what I just did had paralyzed me.

                  "Taylor. Taylor", One Shot said. I finally snap out of my moment of shock and look at her. "Let's get you home", she said grabbing a hold of me. I walk along side of her almost getting to the door with Biggie on our heels. "One last thing", Joseph said. Causing us to come to a stop. "I'm having a masquerade party next weekend and I hope to see you there Ms. Taylor", he said. I nod and we continue to walk out of the building and outside to the car. The whole car ride was silent, all you could hear was crackling of pavement as we drove. I was looking out of the window just day dreaming about a better life, a simple life. Kennith was dead because he stole money, but partly because I wanted to kill him. Everything in me wanted to kill him even though I wanted to blame Joseph. He wasn't the cause of this I was.

                   Arriving in front of Jordan's house I get out of the car and walk in through the front door. Walking into my bedroom I strip out of all of my clothes and get into the shower. Looking at my hands and all of the blood on them I run them under the hot water and then get into the shower. I began to wash myself and just think, why didn't I feel anything. It was kind of  like Joseph knew I wanted to kill him. Like he was just giving me the extra push I needed. Not only had he raped me but he had also stolen from my now business, he got what he deserved. What scared me the most is who I was now becoming. I told myself I was doing what I needed to do but was I really, was this really what I had to do? Or was this just what I wanted to do?

               I got out of the shower and walked to my bed and cried. I stood there and cried not for Kennith but for me and what I had just lost, my innocence. That young innocent girl was dead, she was buried right along with my MaDear and life as I knew it had changed. I get into the bed and cover up wiping away my tears then I close my eyes and drift off to sleep.

                I wake up in the middle of the night scared because I hear someone open my bedroom door. I get up and grab a pistol out of the drawer and cock it. I had stole the gun out of the car from Biggie on the ride home. I wasn't going to risk them trying to kill me in my sleep. I didn't trust any of them and that was just the truth of it all. I point the gun at whoever it is and they turn on the bedroom light. " It's me", Jordan said walking closer. He walks up to me and grabs the gun out of my hands. "It's me baby, calm down. What's going on? It was that meeting wasn't it", Jordan asked?  I look up at him into his eyes I didn't know where to start. Jordan and I had never really spoke of my past or anything I was going through before I met him. Maybe I could trust him, maybe. "Listen if you don't want to talk about it I get it", Jordan said. I sit there and think about it for a moment and then I say," What did they make you do when they tested you?" Jordan and I sit on the bed side by side as Jordan grabbed both of hands looking down while playing with my knuckles. "They uhm, brought me and my last girlfriend to the basement. I was sixteen years old and was convinced I was in love and that she loved me. I went to the basement and seen her and this guy tied up. He had been stealing product from my family. As the night continued they told me she had been sleeping with him and told me to kill them both", Jordan said. I look at him trying to figure out why he looked so nervous, what was he not telling me. " So Jamal took the gun and shot the guy. I tried to stay with that girl. Knowing she was a cheater. A few weeks later I seen her with another guy while we were working on things". Jordan paused a while and continued ,"I snapped and hit both of them with my car",Jordan said. He was holding my hands tight like he thought I was going to get up and leave. "My family had to fix things and call people so I wouldn't go to jail. That's when my father called me sloppy and said I didn't need to be apart of the family cartel", Jordan said. I was looking into his eyes and I could tell he genuinely felt bad.