SAMANTHA'S POV
It's 10am and I went to my psychiatrist for a check up. He thinks I'm getting better and say that the medicine have been doing well based on my stories
"You know you're not supposed to go drinking anymore Jade" He calmly said
"You have a really high alcohol intolerance, but we can't differ your behavior when drunk or having episode. So I suggest stop drinking anymore" He clearly explains
"You think it would help when I'm sober?" I ask giggling
"Look Doc. When I was in london I go to a lot of parties, drinking till I can't anymore. When I'm drunk it all feels lighter, you know who I am right? When I'm drunk I am somebody else. My head is not everywhere, it is in that moment only" I explained with hand gestures pa
"Which is not good Jade. Because if you're thinking only for that moment, you tend to be reckless and immature. You became irrational and doesn't think before doing something. Which will get you in trouble" He explained immediately
"So what do you suggest?" Tanong ko habang nakatingin sa kanya
"I'd say rest for a moment but that is not applicable for you" He mouthed reading on his notes
"Be honest Richard, Gagaling paba ako?" Tanong ko ng nakatingin sa kanya
"Only time can tell Jade honestly, but I think if you will have a better lifestyle it won't be hard for you to recover" He explained
"Ano ba mga bagay na nag papasaya sayo? Kumbaga pag ginagawa mo ang bagay na yun, you are calm" He mouthed looking at me
I then thought of Armina
"Doc can I ask something?" I ask looking at him
"That's what you're paying me for" He mouthed smiling and looked more invested by sitting while facing me
"Can a person affect my condition?" I ask curiously
"Depending on how close you are with the person, but most likely yes" He stated nodding
"Severely?" I asks
"Define severely Jade" He mouthed frowning looking at me
"There are times that I blacked out, my mind is nowhere then the next thing I know she's there, she's holding me and everything just stops" I explained
"So you're like falling in love?" He asks frowning still
"No not like that" I said having a hard time explaining
"Okay" I said and takes a deep breath
"Whenever I am on the verge of losing it I crave for her, not in sexual way but you know just see her face hear her voice... I just want to be held by her" I explained with full of feelings
I may look crazy from his point of view but maybe I am really crazy
"Like there's this one time my uncle told me something like earth shattering news, then my body suddenly shakes and you know I'm slowly losing my senses then I ask for the Magazine where I can see her... and everything went back to normal, my heart stops pounding, my breathing slowly goes back to normal. It's like... something" I mouthed trying to share this information that may help him assess my condition
"Do you love her?" He asks looking at me
"I do" I said with a calm manner and fulfilled heart
It feels so good letting my self say that I am indeed in love with her
"Sometimes kasi the Heart really messes with our heads, maaring ung gusto ng puso mo eh hindi ung gusto ng isip mo... but in your case it's different, kung sinong gusto ng puso mo, that person is actually good for your mental health din. If she can calm you down that means she plays an important role in your mental state" He explained writing something
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Complete Chaos : Samantha Jade
RandomThis is the story of Samantha and her complete chaotic life. Everything in her life is just hanging by a thread, that in just one blow of the wind her life will turn around and be a mess.
