Sun & Moon [[Editing.....Slowly]]

Ch 27: Hematite

Tw: anxiety attack

Jinchul told Cel stories of how they hung out.

''I was very oblivious of your condition cus it didn't really look like what I see in movies'' The man admits and shrugged. ''Yea I know, I get that ALOT'' Cel hummed and laughs.

''What are we going to do now, since you seem to be not dead'' Jinchul asked.

Cel paused and stared at his feet and thought ''part of me wants to go ahead and reveal myself....and apologize to everyone I might have hurt or angered....but a bigger part still needs time'' the blonde male taps his feet and fingers. ''Finding out your a S rank just missing the mark to being a National level hunter....is a lot and I'm C....now'' Cel whispers.

'I might be A now tho'

''And I seemed to have had enemies, if they. Find out I'm alive they might attack and I'm currently....not okay'' Cel admits and felt ashamed?

Ashamed to not be okay?

He knew, no one would blame him if they knew but.....it just feels like
He's an inconvenience to those around him.....just like he was in the past.

'Strong enough to save them all.....too scared to take it'

Cels heart beat sparked up as his eyes widen. He held his held and closed his eyes. ''Not now please'' he whispers. His breath became labored.

'I'm sorry......I disappoint......I'm always in the way aren't I?....it's always my fault.......I couldn't save them.......
Them?....
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Who's them?"

''Celeste?" Jinchul perked up in worry as he looked at him closely. He noticed Cel was trembling. He could hear Cel struggle to breathe.

He felt himself be back in that double dungeon, hearing Jinwoo's screams.......not being able to see or help him.

Then he was back in his last lone quest, being taunted and mocked and beaten.......he couldn't even think or breathe without being slammed against a wall.

Or having half of his bones broken just for fun.

Jinchul panicked abit as he tried to figure out how to help him.

''What do I" he whispers then does the first thing that came to mind.

He brought Cel into his arms and rocked him, back and forth. ''You'll.....you're okay, just listen to my voice, my breathing, my heartbeat. Anything.'' He held Cel tighter.

Cel felt tears prick his eyes.

He curled up and covers his ears. Jinchul looked at the headphones Cel had around his neck and he places them on his head slowly.

He scratched at his cheeks abit too much they turned red. He pants heavily

Taking deep breaths but each time it didn't feel like enough air.

Which made him breath faster

But that only elevated his heartbeat.

But

The small coos of a calm voice were somewhat heard