breathe

chapter twenty-six

Five years later

Draco sat on the train with Harry. he was reading a book. "Dray." Harry whispered. Draco looked up. "we're here." he said. "you wanna wake Lucas?" he asked. Harry nodded and stood up and walked towards the opposing bench. "hey Luke." Harry softly shook him awake. Lucas slowly opened his eyes. "where are we?" he asked half asleep. "we're almost home." Harry said. he sat up. "dad?" he asked. he started addressing Harry as pa and Draco as dad after a year of taking care for him. when he was in headspace Draco took care for him like he was his actual child, when he was normal Draco treated him like a friend. Usually at school he wasn't in headspace that often, but during breaks he was in headspace all the time. Draco looked up at him. "do you have my drink?" he asked. Draco smiled and gave Lucas his sippy cup. Lucas and Teddy had became very good friends, but Remus and Sirius had to homeschool him because Teddy turned out to be a werewolf and since 2000 the ministry didn't allow werewolves into Hogwarts. Minerva protested against it, but without any luck. When the train came to halt they walked towards the platform and flooed home where Teddy immediately flung Lucas around the neck. "hi Luke, I've got so much to tell you." he said excitedly. Lucas smiled. "let's go to my room!" they were the same age and when they were together you couldn't separate them. Cissy came up to harry and flung him around the neck. "I love you." she said and kissed his cheek. "oh Cissy how are you?" Harry asked. "I'm good, I made a drawing for papa, but he's super moody." She said. Harry smiled. "oh Dray!" she said and reached over to Draco. James and Regulus entered the living room and hugged Harry and Draco. "hello sweeties." James said. "hi dad." Harry said. Regulus indeed looked very moody. "what's up?" Harry asked. "Reg is in his menopause and he's not happy." James said. "I thought you hated your period?" Harry asked. "I do hate it, but it just makes old." Regulus said. Harry chuckled. "you're not old, you just can't have babies anymore." Draco said. "and I never will have another baby, because babies are annoying and I don't know how to communicate with children." Regulus said. James started laughing. "I heard that papa." Cissy said. "sorry I wasn't talking about you love." Regulus said and lifted her in the air. Remus and Sirius entered arguing about what they would eat tonight and without even saying their hello's they walked upstairs.

"so like, Duke and Ollie hate each other so much, but there's like this thing..." Lucas looked at Teddy's moving lips, he wanted to kiss them so badly. But something inside him was trying not to think about that, last time that happened his friend gave him a black eye. Taylor, his best friend back then. At Hogwarts he had met so many sweet people and became friends with so many people. Although nobody ever knew everything about him, but Teddy does. He always has a pacifier in his nightstand for when Lucas needs it. Lucas leaned forward and let their lips touch briefly before he had realized what he'd done. "sorry, I didn't mean to do that." Lucas said. Teddy smiled. "it's alright, but if you do a you have to do b so." Teddy grinned and kissed Lucas. "I like you a lot." He whispered when they broke apart. "really?" Lucas asked. "the day I met you here in the living room, I liked you. you didn't think I was weird when I was changing my teeth during puberty." Teddy smiled. "you didn't think that I was weird because I'm 16 years old and act like a baby." Lucas said.

Harry looked atDraco's hands they were trembling again. the past five years he'd startedhaving panic attacks. He'd have 264 since the first one. Harry didn't knowwhere they came from. And Draco didn't want to tell. But Harry was always thereto hold him through everything. "it's gonna be alright Dray, I love you and itwill never change." Harry whispered. Draco was shaking and crying. He coveredhis ears with his hands and pulled with his fingers at his hair. "don't dothat." Harry shushed him and got away his hands and intertwined their fingersso Draco could squeeze his hands. "okay let's play a game." Harry whispered andDraco squeezed his hands. "okay tell me one thing you can hear?" Harry said."your voice." Draco breathed out. "good, tell me two things you can taste."Harry said. "my mint and my tears." He said. Harry nodded. "tell me threethings you can smell." Harry said. "you, my perfume and mint." He said. "fourthings you can feel." He said. "you, the bed, your hands and my hair." He said.Harry nodded. "tell me five things you can see." Harry said. Draco had calmeddown a little bit. "I see your hand, my legs, the mirror, the bedsheets and thedoor." Harry nodded. "how do you feel?" Harry asked. "better." He said. Harrykissed him. knowing he shouldn't ask where it came from, Draco didn't want totell. "I need to talk about something." Draco said. Harry turned to him. "butit's a long story and I have written everything down that I want to say." Dracosaid. Harry nodded. "okay what is it about?" Harry asked. "everything why Ihave these panic attacks." Draco said. Harry nodded. "okay just breathe."

if you want to know Draco's story, you can! I'm gonna write it in another story, so people who don't want to know don't have to.