There's a Universe in Here

Loveaphobia

When I was real young
I had a real love
(Although he didn't know)
When I was young I had a real crush
A time forever ago

When I was real young
I was real dumb
I learned a bitter truth
Not all of us fell a real love
If only back then I knew

When I was real young
I trusted too many
I was a dreamer, who lay her soul under the sun
A weak and scrawny wallflower
They laugh, point, they make fun

When I was real young
My innocence was stripped away
I saw and I learned
Just because you love with all your heart
Doesn't mean you will be loved in return

Now I'm not young
And I don't fell real love
I haven't I quite a long time
I don't look or search
I know there is nothing to find

Now I'm not young
And I've built up a wall
I've built a fortress sturdy as can be
No windows no doors
For one cannot love what one cannot see

Now I'm not young
And I see others in love
I wonder, don't they know the danger there
The unpredictable trail of love
That I've always feared

Now I'm too old
And despite what's occurred, what I've seen
I wish to be able to love once again
But it seems almost impossible
To have anything more than a friend

Now I'm too old
To be hiding behind walls
Conceded and blind
Have to tear them down like they went up
With endurance and time

Now in too old
To fell this childish fear
I know there's danger in every heart
But this is not the same love
That once tore me apart

Now I'm too old
I see I'm not the only one
Who has been badly hurt
There are many others
I will not be the last I was not the first

Now I'm too old
There must be a cure
Time to leave my loveless dystopia 
And find a cure for a disease
Called Loveaphobia