The Grey Butterfly {H.S}

The Grey Butterfly 18

"What the hell are you doing here?!" I shout, then remember my mother was in the room below me.

"You left." He looked distant, like he was suppressing something.

"Yes, Einstein. I did leave. When did you figure that one out?" My sarcastic comment probably wasn't needed by the change of expression on his face.

His eye twitched once and the same low growl vibrated in his chest. "You do not wanna test me right now!" He was now standing in front of me, as though I was his prey.

"Hmm, why not Harry? Why not?!" I pushed him at the chest, my anger starting to bubble.

His hands latched onto my wrists. "You were lucky I didn't come after you today and threw you over my shoulder."

I bit. "You knew I was gonna leave."

"Yes, I did and you can thank Gracie for persuading me to give you room. Now where were you?"

"What? That is non of your business." I held my ground with my arms crossed.

"Where. Were. You?!" He repeats himself, again.

"I think you should leave."

"Why can't you just....." He cut himself off and the change of expression in his face frightened me a little. "You were with him weren't you?!"

I dropped my eyes to the floor. "We're just friends. Nothing happened" The lie flew from my mouth and danced around him as though it was teasing me. My heart broke a little from knowing what I'd done, but should I really feel guilty?

"I have told you before, stay away from him!" He screams.

"Can you keep it down? I snap. "Or my mother will know someone is up here."

"I don't care. Stay away from him. I won't tell you again."

"You know it's funny, he says the same thing about you." He flinches at my harsh words. "Stay away from him, Mia. Harry's dangerous. He'll just hurt you," I imitate Zayn's deep voice. "You say the same thing about each other and it messes with my head." I huff and fall back onto my bed.

"Do you believe him?" He questioned. I had my eyes closed so I couldn't see if facial expression, but his voice soundes smooth and calm.

"I don't know." My voice sounded hoarse. I felt the bed dip slightly and his body was up against mine.

"I would never hurt you...." He sounded so genuine, so broken. Then his fingers find mine and fold into each other, I did it naturally without a second thought.

"But you will... you do hurt other people." This was more of a statement than a question.

"Not without good reason." His grip on my hand tightened, though it wasn't painful, he still held it with force.

"I know you're keeping something from me. Your dad he taunts me about it whenever he see's me and even then, I always feel his presence around me, reminding me," I whisper and I feel him still beside me.

"Mia...." He sighs.

"Why can't you tell me?" I'm almost begging and I hear him sigh again.

"It's not that simple," he starts off and I spring up from the bed.

This jolt of anger coursing through me. "Bullshit." I snap.

"Language," he growls

.

"What is with you? Your mood changes like the weather - In Scotland." (A/N Sorry that's kinda an inside joke)

"Why do you ask so many questions?!" We are both standing, almost circling each other.

"You know, that's a really good question; maybe because I kissed you yesterday, you gave me a necklace. Oh, wait for this one; and I slept in the same freaking bed as you. I'd like to know whether I was sharing it with an axe murderer or not," I snarl.

Harry pales and runs his hand through his messy hair. "I'm not an axe murderer." He exhales. He comes over, holds both of my hands, and makes me look up at him. "There are things that you don't know and, trust me, it would be a lot easier if I could just tell you love, but I can't not right now." He peels back a bit of my hair that had hidden my face from him.

I hadn't even felt the tears prickle in my eyes, I knew my head had made the decision this time not my heart. "Little secrets grow up to become big lies," I whisper.

"No, Mia I how it seems, but you just have to trust me."

"I only trust myself." By now I knew my tears had escaped and were running down my cheeks. I wanted to run. "I can't do this, Harry and I won't." I pulled my hands from his and regained full control of my body.

His eyebrows pulled up and he took a step towards me.

"NO!" I recoil from him. There's no way I could bare his touch, not without fracturing.

"Mia, please don't do this," he begs.

"I can't believe-" I now had tears flooding down my face. "That I felt guilty today when Zayn kissed me, when you're probably sleeping with girls behind my back."

"HE KISSED YOU!" I felt his scream echo through my head.

My mother must have heard that. "Yes, Harry. Zayn kissed me. Would you like me to go into more detail?" My heart ached from the venomous words I had just injected him with. I went quiet.

However, Harry looked like he was about to lose his cool. His knuckles were whiter than paper, his face was redder than a stop sign, and his eyes were blacker than the darkest of hearts. "Do yo...you have feelings for him?" He spits out his words like a mouth full of dirt.

"Harry, please can you just leave? I'm so tired," I murmured.

"Please, I need to know." He was almost down on his knees, begging me.

"No, Harry I don't have any feeling for Zayn." It was like Harry let out a breath he hadn't consciously known he was holding.

He picked me up and laid me on my bed. Fighting with him literally drained the life out of me. His hand flattened my hair that rested on my pillow and his soft lips grazed my forehead.

"I don't even know what we are, Harry," I whisper almost, half asleep.

"We are us. You and me."

"No, Harry. There is no us, not with your wall of secrets keeping me from you."

I heard him sigh again. "Once I've figured this all out, love, there will be an us."

"Promise?" I purr in my sleep.

"I promise."

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Oaft that was a heart chapter to write, I could feel my eyes watering by the end...jeezz I get way to emotionally attached it's probably not good for me. SO I have noticed quite a few new readers who I would love to welcome and say thankyou, I'd love to know your views and comments on this. I also want to do a thing where me and all you guys who are interested about well basically love this story as much as I do get together on a group chat and you can ask me questions and each other questions and we can all get to know each other and I can thank you all and I will also be giving out some unread scenes that I won't post and I will let you read some character profiles. I will take a maximum of 5 people so first come first served just comment of P.M me. Love you all Lovelies.

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~ Edited 27/07/2015