Taming the Blue Skies ( Boy's Love )

05: Confession

05: Confession

I answered the facetime when my Mom called. I'm too busy kasi these past few days lalo na’t babad sa training. Last week pa nag end ‘yung usapan namin ni Lavish. This week na kasi ang uwi ni Vinny, and Lavish needs to focus on his studies too.

“Busy?” my Mom asked, I smiled at the camera.

“Hindi naman.” I answered and typed again on the keyboard.

“Bukas na raw ang-uwi ni Trent, sabi ng Tita Yerin mo.” she said, na iki-nalingon ko.

“Bukas?” I asked again, frowning rapidly.

“Yes. He planned it, at is-inabay sa birthday niya.” Mom replied,

“Why so sudden?” I asked, lumingon sa camera.

Nag-usap pa kami about sa pinsan ko hanggang sa natapos na ako sa PPT ko. It's already midnight, I did some stretching habang humihikab. Lumabas ako sa kwarto para mag timpla nang kape, it helps me sleep though.

I was sipping on my hot coffee when a notification popped-up on my screen. I opened it and read the text.

Kristen:
Tuloy ba ‘yung Boracay natin next week?

Levi:
Baka masagasaan ‘yung midterms.

Sevi:
Bakit kasi nasa daan ‘yan?

Loki:
Kaya ka na friend zone eh!

Cia:
Be serious please :)

Zach:
Ginagalit niyo na naman si hetty.

Cia:
Fuck you!

Cia:
Sent a photo.

Ang gulo nila. Katamad tuloy mag back read. They're talking about our gala na dapat ngayong week but unfortunately, we all have that hectic schedule.

I clicked another number in my contacts, and constructed some words before sending it. Nagdalawang isip pa ako, pero at the end si-nend ko parin.

Me:
Busy ka ba next weekend?

I was waiting for a reply, habang pinapanood ang mga naglalakihang building mula rito sa balkonahe. The city lights are giving, and it's so aesthetic. It's giving me a nostalgic vibes.

Lavish:
Hindi naman. Bakit?

Ubos ko na ‘yung kape ko nang mag text siya. I typed a reply for him, kinakabahan ako while typing. Kalma, Henryx. Kalma!

Me:
My friends are planning a trip to Boracay.

Me:
I just want to ask if you could come over or not?

I replied. Kinakabahan ako na parang ewan. Nag timpla ulit ako nang kape, pero parang mas bumilis ‘yung palpitations ko.

Lavish:
Pag-isipan ko.

He replied. I read it breathless, pa-ulit-ulit kong binasa kung meron pa siyang reply but unfortunately, wala na. I felt so fucking down by it.

Lavish:
Okay. Sige, sasama ako :)

I almost threw myself up. Mabilis ang kalabog sa aking dibdib. I was gasping some air at halos hindi na makahinga. I think I really need to stop drinking coffee, na sosobrahan ko lately eh!

Me:
Okay. Wala nang bawian ‘yan ah!

I replied. Nag reply lang siya ng heart na sticker. I closed my phone and went to sleep. Pa-ano ako ngayon matutulog kung ganito, halo-halo ‘yung nararamdaman ko.