❞𝐕𝐈𝐕𝐀𝐀𝐇 [𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐧] ✔

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧.

"yahi ishq di marzi hai
yahi rabdi marzi hai"

JANHAVI

I don't know for how long I was in Ishan Ji's embrace. He was constantly trying to console me but, a part of me had disappeared with Maa. It was still hard to believe that my Maa, who was so busy with my wedding a month earlier, who was crying her heart out before my vidaayi two weeks back, is no more. The words - is no more haunts me. I still remember the smiling and content face of Maa when Ishan ji agreed to marry me. Maybe she already knew that he's a gentleman.

For several moments, after receiving the news I felt numb unable to process everything. My brain felt befuddled. When I could finally register what had happened, I was totally grief stricken.

I knew that my Maa's untimely death must be because of my sins. I'm at fault here. I must have kept my distance from Ishan ji. I totally don't remember what had happened last night but when I woke up in the morning, my lipstick was totally smeared and there were several dark red hickeys on my neck. Ishan Ji's face was also full of lipstick marks, the same shade I had been wearing. This all was too fucked up. What if I had put up a show while being drunk?

To top off things, my head is aching so bad that it might burst any moment.

I had no idea about last night and to be honest, I didn't want to have an idea. Whatever had been done was a grave mistake and I'll make sure that it is never ever repeated. I don't know whether he remembers anything or not. I had covered my neck with dupatta so that the marks are not visible.

Tears were uncontrollably streaming down my cheeks and I didn't even care to wipe them. Ishan ji was wiping my tears and constantly muttering.

"Ishan ji?"

"Haan bolo?"

"I need to go. Maa ko akhri baar dekhne ke liye"

"Vivan has already booked tickets for us, maine use bol diya. 1 baje flight hai"

I couldn't be more grateful for this.

I wanted to maintain distance from him but life wasn't letting me.

I was lost in trance when suddenly Ishan Ji's phone rang. He picked up the phone.

"Nahi nahi delay karwa dijiye. Is week mein nahi hoga." he said over phone.

"Are family emergency hain. Hum kuch kar nahi sakte we can't go there this week. Agle hafte ka date karwa dijiye.", saying so he cut the call.

I looked at him with questioning eyes because, the 'she' he mentioned in the call might be me.

"Kya huya?" I asked.

"Wo lawyer call kar raha tha. Kal court jaane bol raha hai. I told him ki nahi hoga" he said.

"Par...", and I got interrupted by him.

"Janhavi tum rest lo, no need to think about all this."

I kept sitting on the couch, in ny own world. Ishan ji went inside to do something, what I don't know.
Memories of Maa kept playing in my mind, making fresh tears fall down my eyes. It was just unbelievable for me that I won't be able to see Maa anymore.