Do I wanna know?

10.

stars cant shine without darkness

-unknown

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9:48 pm

And there I was,again;sitting on the roof.This time alone.Not because I wanted to,but because Ghost was busy.Basically,he met a new recruit named Etta,and she was the sweetest person ever.We actually became close friends over some time,but I guess Ghost and her are a little more than that.

Tonight I wasnt really feeling like killing myself,because life actually started to feel great!I made a new friend,Simon finally found himself a girlfriend that he always dreamed of;so now he doesnt have to bother me,I got closer to all my recruits that Im teaching,König and I ar-

Oh.

König.That idiot.

For some reason,I still have mixed feelings about him.We did share an emotional moment a few days ago,but still...
I cant explain it.I wish I could...but I cant.

I took a cigarette from my pocket and lit it.It was almost december,and tonight,the first snow started falling.I took a puff of the cigar.

Then I heard someone behind me.I didnt bother to look back.I felt someone sit next to me.It was König.

"Charly..?What are you doing here?Its freezing..."He said,and I didnt know what to say

"I always come up here when I feel bad.Looking at the sky makes me at least a little alive."I said as I took another puff of the cigarette.

"Mm..."Konig nodded.

We were just sitting there in silence.I was already tired enough from everything.

"May I know why you are still not talking to me?"He asked,and to be honest,I didnt know the answer.

"I dont know."I said weakly.I took another puff of the cigarette.

Suddenly,it slipped out of my hand,falling to the ground.

For some reason,I got up and almost jumped off the roof to get it,thank God that Konig caught me.

"Hey,hey...sit down!Calm down..."
He said,worry in his eyes.
"Lets get you inside..."He said as he helped me to get up on my feet and walked with me to my barrack room.

As we got in we sat on my bed,just talking to each other.
"Honestly,I never thought about going to a therapist...but I think I should."I said with a smile.
"No need for a therapist when you have me,ey?"
He laughed,and I felt ms chest get warm.He really was a good person..I think it was just me all the time.

"Now...it's getting late,and we have a meeting tomorrow morning.How about you get some sleep,huh?"He said as he got up from my bed.

A little voice in my head was telling me to ask him to stay,but I just ignored it.

"Yeah,you're right...well,goodnight,König."I said as I stoop up from my bed to
open the door for him.He then left.I didn't close the door yet.I was watching his muscular frame walk away from me.He looked like a greek god,I swear.