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/9/ Help

I am experiencing a great, great, great difficulty right now. The last thing I want to do was asking for someone's help. I know it isn't that bad to ask for someone's help, but I can say, I'm a bit confident that I can do it myself.

My scores were flunking. I don't know but even when I am always studying, when the exam came, I still couldn't make it to pass. I need someone's help.

I have someone in mind to whom I want to talk to but are being eaten by my fear to be rejected. Paano kung tanggihan ako? Ipapahiya ko lang ang sarili ko.

But now isn't the right time to fear about that. If I'll let my fear get in the way, I'm done. I'll get in trouble, and I don't want that.

"Christian," patiuna ko. Dito pa lang, abot-tahip na ang kaba ko. I just couldn't make it.

It's now or never, I said to myself. So, despite the fear that I'm experiencing now and the urge to run, I reminded myself that if I won't make it this time, I'd be dead. "I want you to teach me, I couldn't understand the way our professors taught it."

"Alright, I'll help you." Ito pala ang sinasabi nilang walang estudyanteng tatanggi sa kanilang kaklase na kailangan ng tulong. They also need it to widen their knowledge and to better understand it since they are teaching it.

Akala ko, tatanggi siya. Pero yung paraan talaga ng pagkakasabi ko, mukhang hindi maganda. Direktahan. Dapat ba, pinaikot-ikot ko muna ito para naman magmukhang hindi iyon tumunog 'won't take no for an answer'?

Interacting with someone is what I should improve. I'm noting on this, and I'll practice how it should be done. Especially now that I'd be dealing with someone that's not on my level of knowledge. Higher than mine.

Ang kagandahan lang sa klase namin na to, ang daming bakanteng oras pero hindi ko ramdam iyon. Nauubos naman kasi iyon sa pag-aaral kaya parang napakabilis lamang ng oras. Parang palagi akong ubos pagkatapos ng leksyon.

We couldn't study in the library as it suggests being silent. Ang lugar lang na hindi masyadong matao at makakapagsalita kami nang hindi iniisip na may maiisturbo ay ang tennis field. Wala halos na may namamalagi doon, siguro na rin ay dahil nasa likod ito at hindi talaga malalaman na may parte pala na yon ng eskwelahan kung hindi ka maliligaw dito.