The history book on the shelf is always repeating itself

My world is spinning

The following days seemed to fly by so fast. They succumbed to a routine and everything seemed just perfect. Tonight, it would be the first night that they'd return to their own bedrooms, she missed Björn sleeping next to her desperately and she couldn't be happier. They all ate dinner and got ready for bed, making sure all the children were asleep they were all too ready to go to bed. Both couples needed a night together, it has been hard to stay away from each other all those nights but they did what was necessary. Once they were alone in bed, with their little twins by the side of the bed, Agnetha snuggled close to Björn and soon fell asleep she had always felt safe in his arms and today wasn't no different. If only she'd have known what would wait for her when she next woke up.

Agnetha stretched in her bed, though it wasn't the same bed she fell asleep in. Björn wasn't here either. She looked around confused. She recognised the bedroom immediately. It was her home when she still lived with Björn in Lidingö until 1979. She could hear sounds coming from outside the bedroom and as she looked through the window, she could clearly see it wasn't morning but rather almost evening. In the very next moment Björn stormed into the bedroom, anger written all over his face. "What do you think you're doing?! It's bloody Christmas Eve! You're the one that wants more time with the children! And what you do all day when we finally do? You lay in bed totally oblivious while I have to deal with them!!!" exclaimed Björn. Agnetha burst into tears and her memories of the same night flashed before her eyes. Angry, fight, dizzy, baby, miscarriage and then she would break and leave. She continued to sob while Björn calmed down a bit and sat next to her on the bed. "What is it baby? I know we've been fighting these past few months but we will fight our way through this and we will be just fine you'll see." He tried to comfort her but she just continued sobbing. When she finally calmed down enough, she told him everything. Every single detail, everything. For better or for worse, she was going to be honest this time. If he's going to break her heart let that be but she's going to fight for them and she will never again do the same mistake. She won't let him go. Björn listened to her patiently and could hardly believe what she was telling. He never imagined she would leave him nor that he would jump into another woman's arms so fast or ever for that matter. He couldn't imagine his life without Agnetha. No other woman could ever hold a candle to his Agnetha. While the story got crazier and less and less believable, he was glad that it was only a nightmare. He won't let her go, he never would not in the real world. Knowing Agnetha's insecurities, he decided to talk to her calmly and make sure she knew just how much he loved her.

As Agnetha's story was approaching its end, she was getting tense. She still had one important detail to expose. "Baby," she signed, looking deeply in her husband's eyes. "I'm pregnant." Björn couldn't believe it, why did she leave then, well you never really know with dreams, she thought to himself. He was speechless. "And I'm going to miscarry tonight." She finished on a sombre note.

"What?" exclaimed Björn, "What do you mean, you're going to miscarry tonight? You don't just plan these things!" Björn was getting angry now. "It happened the first time..." said Agnetha in a low voice, he could barely hear her. He tried to compose himself a bit, his anger suddenly disappearing now he understood her. "Baby, it was only a bad dream nothing like that's going to happen. Did you take the test yet?" he questioned. "No," she answered shyly "I just know it, I think I can feel her," she spoke in mare whisper. Björn signed and went to the other side of their bed, giving her a hand, gently helping her stand and leading her into the bathroom. He sat her on the edge of the bath while he looked for a test in their bathroom closet. He helped her do it and together they waited for the results. It would take a while, so they decided to go back into the bedroom where she could relax and rest a bit. Luckily the children were just in the middle of their nap and wouldn't disturb them just yet. After the necessary time had passed, they went back to the bathroom to see the results. Positive. Agnetha burst into tears once again while Björn took her into his arms and kissed her thoroughly. "We're going to have another baby, darling. I know it's pretty soon after Christian but we're going to make it work, you'll see!" he could hardly contain his excitement and this finally calmed Anna enough to take the news to heart. "Another baby," she smiled widely at him and finally her precious laughter could be heard once again. After months of fights, they were finally on the right track. Both of them were adamant that Agnetha's dream will never come true and now it was time to continue to write their beautiful story.

"I can't wait to tell Frida!" smiled Agnetha, snuggling into Björn's chest while they laid in their bed enjoying the moments they had before the kids woke up once again, ready for the celebrations of Christmas to begin.