friends or more?

3. why her?

a/n i really should have had a full rough draft of this story

Pov nobody

enid is crying and getting high with ajax she just wants to know why wednesday did that and what she can do to make up for it. and wednesday is exploring the forest trying to forget what she just did or why she did it. she knew that she was destine to be alone so why does it hurt so much what did enid do to her she acts soft and loving to her that's not who she suppose to be.

Pov enid

why would she say and do that to me ajax. i'm a mess right now and it's so stupid why did i fall for a girl i just meet that was stupid but still i can't get her out of my head. "i don't know enid but it's going to be okay I'm sure she didn't mean to do that some people have off days." maybe your right god i hope you're right "i can't believe you fell for her already but i guess i should be surprised" heyyyy that's what suppose to mean. i ask upset why would he say that what does he mean by that. "sorry enid it's just you did the same thing to yoko" no your right i just want to be loved by someone even thought i know yoko was only using me i want nothing more then for it to go back to the way it was "i know enid but it's going to be okay i promise and i'm sorry but curfew is soon so you have to go" okay jax see you later love you "i love you too e" as i start walking back i get a text from yoko fuck i really want to be loved right now fuck it i will answer whats the worst that could happen. she asked me to go to her room to talk so i start walk i'm getting nerves but i make it to her door and i knock and unlike last time god that memory is burned into my mind but whatever she answer the door immediately "enid i didn't think you would come" yeah whatever what did you want "i wanted to talk at about" what do you want to talk about "i just wanted you to know i do love and care for you it may not seem like it right now but i promise you i do and i will do anything to prove it". as she is telling me this i can't help but want her i don't even know why anymore maybe i'm really only here for someone to love me even if they real do. but i know i need her i push my lips on to her how could i let myself do this but i continue i let myself love her. "enid are you sure i don't want to force this on to you" just shut up and do this please. "and she does it even though i know its fake i still love it the way someone can see me that vonlbrlie is crazy. after a well we are done and i'm getting dress ready to leave before yoko says something "i love divina you know that and i know that but i also love you you an amazing girl and you don't deserve to be treated the way i did i'm sorry enid i never wanted you to feel like that" it's okay yoko but thank you for this. yoko trys telling me something but i'm already out the door back to the dorm and i hear someone groan from my bathroom i got to see what it is and i see wednesday what happened wednesday "e-enid" and then she passes out and i'm panicking   

Pov wednesday

as i walk down the mud trail and passing trees all i can think is how can i make it but to her and why did i do that what snapped did i really need to know if i'm so soft all of that was over a vision. why did i can to much if she didn't want me. fuck i can't with this stupid feeling why can't i be a robot. i think even if i was one enid would make me fall in love with her and i will become a sentient and feel things i'm not suppose to feel why did she have to come a long and confuse me why can't i be my old self who wouldn't care why do i care. i'm just in my head about everything and its getting dark out i should start to walk about well a walk that started at 7 pm and now it's about to be 10 pm and i'm barely on nevermore ground when i start to hear howling fuck it is a full moon tonight i'm running as fast as i can and i'm almost there but i can hear the howling get closer and then i was clawed at in the stomach i just need to get back to by room is all i could tell myself part of me knew enid wouldn't be there but a bigger part wished she would be there to help me because i knows i can't do it alone. my vision is getting foggy but i can see the door i just need to lay down for a bit yeah just a bit. my head hurts and i can't hear anything just a ring but i can feel someone by me that smell the mix of strawberry and vanilla enid was there and i was so happy to feel her near i smile full and proud. she makes me proud even if i hadn't done anything just her being her true self was something i love about her  god what don't i love about her she's everything. i start to hear something "wednesday please tell me what happened what can i do to make this better." i don't know if she's talking about the argument or the pain i'm in right now or right meow as enid would say. yep i'm dying. stomach is all i could get out i hope she can help i just want help right now. wednesday i'm gonna call the nurse okay? okay i can hear what she's saying to the nurse i feel as if i'm going in and out. next thing i know i'm in the hospital next to enid and she looks was if she had been crying i feel bad it's my fault she feels like this right now. i'm sorry enid "wednesday.... wednesday your okay" she said as a tear rolled down her cheek god i would never want to make her feel this again. "wait why are you sorry you didn't do anything" i caused this because i started an argument with you over nothing i did even mean or want to say any of that. "wednesday it's okay i just thought you were mad at me for the kissing and what not" she blushes at the mention of us kissing and i do to all i want is to kiss her again to feel her love her everything i wished she just kiss me i miss that feeling. man you sure know what to say how many people have you kissed i laugh pretty hard i can tell the medicine is still in my system. "only 4" wow who? i ask that in jealousy hoping she can't read in to that "you, yoko, random girl kate, and ajax you don't know him but he's my bestie and his gay so i'm not running into that" she laughed god was she breathtaking her soft smile lines perfect teeth and the faint smell of juicy fruit gum. fuck why am i like this. enid can i ask you something "yeah anything wens" do you miss yoko? "no but yes i miss the love she showed me even if it was fake" god i hate that stupid vamp would she leave me for her would it be weird to ask fuck it. has she texted you for anything i see enid tense up and get nervous she did see yoko i can tell. "maybe..." did you do it? "yes..." my face drops i can't be this hurt i knew this would happen. "but wednesday it was the last time" please go enid "bu-" enid please as i say that a tear rolls down my cheek and she just walks out. god the smell of her lingers why did i fall this thinking she would want something with me is so stupid. she's not like me so why would she want me why would she is all i can ask of my self. i wish i never asked about yoko then she would still be her. why can't i let her go how could i not fall for her?

a/n - sorry this didn't come out yesterday i started but to get the creative juices going i took a blinker and i would do that every time i tried starting and would forget what the story was about reread both chapters like 5 times at less and still forget most of it gezz it was not fine guys big thumbs downs booo.