Whispers in the confessional ~ Wolfstar

Chapter 12- forgiveness

Sirius Black's point of view:

The car ride home was one of the most tense in history. No words were exchanged and Father Lupin not putting on any music didn't help either. Overall I never hope I'm in a situation like this ever again.

When we got back to his house, he went straight to his bedroom and left me sat there alone in his living room. I frantically messaged James.

James!!!

What?

I think I fucked up any chance I had with my fav sexy preist.

Your fav? There's multiple? Anyway, how did you mess up a chance you never had with a CELIBATE priest.

He came to have a meal this morning with my family

Oh shit, your mum say something ???

Nope :(

Then what the hell was it?!?!

While he was speaking to my mum I decided to just idk, like kick his feet under table gently.

So you flirted with him?

Is that what it was?
Anyway after we came out he was all like 'wtf was that, why were you feeling me up?'

You were kinda feeling him up.

Alright :( I get it.
Anyway, and then I got a tad defensive and was all like 'do you only think of me as an alcoholic sex pest?'

Just a tad

Shut up, and now he's not talking to me.

Dam right, you felt him (a celibate priest) up over a meal and then decided to tell him that he only thinks of you as a sex pest, which my best guess is that he probably doesn't. He had every right to ignore you.

:(
Not helpful

Just trimming your massive ego ;)

So what do I do?

Apologise to him! Say 'hey sorry for being really shitty and feeling you up in front of my family and then putting words in your mouth.

But I don't want to do that :( my fragile ego!

Message me when you've done it (and wait till you're not with him so he doesn't think you're ignoring him)

Alright :(

It took far too long for me to muster up the courage to apologise. Hours in fact. I hadn't even noticed him coming in and starting to cook lunch. He was gliding around the kitchen (not as graceful as it sounds) with pots and pans preparing, whatever he was having.

I just sat silently and creepily watching him. I couldn't take my eyes off him. Occasionally, when he wasn't watching the food, he would glare at me and I would quickly look away but would then give in and look at him again.

After a while he said, "Lunch is ready." In a miserable and bored tone.

I was shocked he had made dinner for me as well but without hesitation got up and made my way to the dining table. I sat down and saw spaghetti in front of me, "Is this all you know how to make?" I laughed trying to lighten the mood but after I received no laugh in response I just stopped laughing and sat down.

After he began to eat I picked up my fork as well but didn't pick up any foot yet. I hesitated, "I'm sorry about earlier. I shouldn't have said that shit to you. And I shouldn't of been touching you either, you're a celibate priest for goodness sake." I laughed to myself.

All through my crummy apology he continued eating, a few brief moments after I finished he sighed and put the fork down, "Not just that, you just don't touch people under a table in front of your family! Celibate or not! Whatever you think this is, you need to stop thinking it right now! I'm a priest, I'm not going to date you Sirius!" He went slightly ballistic.

"Father I-"

"Don't 'father' me. I'm not here to fulfil your weird fetish. This is my work, religion and life, not something for you to dabble in to see if you like it sexually." He picked up his plate and stood up, "Im eating in my room and then I've got confession duty." And he left promptly.

I slumped back in my chair, pulling my knees up and eating slowly. While I ate I messaged James.

Apology didn't go as planned.

What did you do?

Why do you always assume it's my fault?

Cuz it is always your fault.

Fair.

So what did you do?

I apologised and then he told me that I needed to stop thinking I had a chance with him and that I was sexualising his profession.

Which you were.

I don't even know what to do.

I don't know what to tell you, stop sexualising his job and stop thinking you have a chance with him.

Ugh.

While messaging James Remus left the apartment. I put down my phone and sighed, what was I going to do? I finished my spaghetti and decided to do the washing up so he might me less mad at me. After pacing around his living room I had an idea.

Time skip brought to you by triangles.
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Alright I can do this. I entered the confessional. "Bless me father for I have sinned."

Somehow he went even more silent even though he wasn't speaking.

"I knew this awesome guy, like literally so cool. He was so nice, welcoming and just a genuinely good person. You don't find many of those now. But I think I messed it all up. He showed me attention and kindness and I took it for more than what it was. I was shitty, really shitty, treating him like some sex object that he isn't. I fear I've ruined our friendship and I don't want that, I don't want him to hate me, I like him, I think he's great. I just really wish things would go back to the way they were and that he will accept my apology."

I heard a deep sigh, "I accept Sirius. Now go back upstairs and get a good film ready, preferably a classic." I heard the smile in his voice and from that response a smile grew on my face too.

Remus didn't enjoy holding grudges, he wouldn't take shit don't get me wrong but he likes for things to be put right. Just those few words he said spoke so much to me and made me so happy.

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Ahhh, I need to finish this because I have such a great kylux fic planned. I don't want to rush this though :)