Misery (John Lennon Fanfiction)

Part 15

John's POV:||
I sealed my lips and sucked in the smoke from my cigarette as I walked into school wearing my sunglasses. The kick drum of a hangover lodged in my forehead, giving me a hell of a headache. Again, to my slight annoyance, Dennis approached.

"Oi John!" He ran over

"Wha d'ya want Dennis?" I said, giving Pete a nod and standing beside him, leaning my head back against the brick wall.

"How's Amelia then?" He said, giving me a nudge.

"Psh" I scoffed, glancing over to Thelma who had just hiked up her skirt, catching my eye.

"Done with her are ya?" He grinned, picking up all the little crumbs of gossip he could find

"Nah I haven't decided, but uh, I might have a go at her sometime I'll just keep her in my books y'know, she'll be there" I coughed a little, taking another draw on the cigarette

"S'good t'hear" he sighed with relief

"Oh? Why's that?" I cocked an eyebrow

"Oh y'know Will wanted to make sure you were out of the way before he had a crack"

I smiled a little, shaking my head. "Yeah yeah well, see how far he gets, good luck to him"

Dennis chuckled with the cheeky grin of little schoolboy "He doesn't need luck now, got a shag out of her yesterday"

My eyes narrowed and my eyebrows furrowed "He what?"

"Oh you would know John, y'know they were shakin the bed" he giggled, loosening his tie.

I swallowed hard. A few different scenarios going through my head... What if she was a slag? And she was just actin all innocent to me? What if he's lying? He could just be making it up, God knows I've done it before.

I cleared my throat and pushed myself off the wall to walk into the tall building "Yeah, excuse me Dennis."

Amelia's POV:||
I sat down next to Will in physics, a nervous but comfortable feeling in my stomach and probably expression on my face.

"Hey" I said with a smile. He gave me a curt nod in response. "Do you wanna go out again after school? Y'know uh maybe go to the park-"

He furrowed his eyebrows and gave me a funny look "I don't need to see you again sweetheart, I got what I wanted."

I furrowed my eyebrows and looked down as that sentence played over in my head. Got what he wanted. My innocence, my trust, my fucking sex was all he wanted and all he got, and I had been so stupid to just give it away to this fucking prick.

John's POV:||
"So you did fuck him?" I said, walking through her bedroom door.

"How did you get in here?!" She asked

"Gran let me in, gran let me in. So... you did? Or is it just a rumour Minnie?" I said leaning on her desk. She shook her head, continuing to write in her book.

"What does that mean?!" I said frustratedly "I didn't realise all that I needed to do was take you out for a muffin and then you would jump in my bed. Hell s'probably not even the first time it's happened I bet-"

"I can't put up with your shit John!" She raised her voice

"Why? Why can't you? You can't or don't want to? Why do I even think anyone cares about me anyways-"

"Why are you blaming me?" She sighed, rubbing her head

"Because you fucked him" I croaked, panting after my rant of frustration to gain back some oxygen.

"Maybe I didn't want to fuck him, maybe I didn't really want him to fuck me, but he was charming and scary at the same time, I felt like I could trust him but at the same time I felt like if I said no he would hurt me. I made a huge fucking mistake a-and it's hard enough for me to deal with it without you coming in here and getting cross at me because you are so self centred and self entitled that you think whatever I do is your concern! You don't control me John and I sure as hell do not need your pissy anger and judgement right now." She almost yelled, her voice shaking. She took a deep breath and turned away from me "I want you to leave."

My eyes watered a little and my cheeks were red from both anger and embarrassment, my voice shook as I spoke "I-I'm sorry...C-can I stay here? I-I don't have-"

"Not with me, I-I don't want to see you..." She swallowed, her heart, hopefully, softening to me "but Gran might let you sleep on the couch"

I nodded slowly and swallowed. "Th-thank you Minnie.."

"I might talk to you tomorrow if you decide to have some respect for me."