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14. Stupid feelings

Hanni's POV:

I was falling in love. In love with Minji, that was something I couldn't deny no matter what. It had been an entire month since Minji asked me to be her girlfriend, and I had been the happiest person on the planet ever since. Not a single thing about her had changed. Minji was an amazing girlfriend; every experience with her was amazing. The dates were amazing, the late-night phone calls were amazing, the little words of affirmation were amazing, her humor was still amazing, the intimacy was amazing, the best actually—she was wonderful, beyond words could ever describe.

And I didn't know how to act, how to be around her. I didn't know what I was supposed to do. I had never had anything like this before, and I was scared these overwhelming feelings would destroy me. Minji and I had gone nothing past than liking each other, but I most definitely had. However, I just didn't know if she felt the same.

I promised Minji that I would tell my parents about us in the first week of our relationship, but I just couldn't. Either I couldn't find time to talk with them, or I just didn't have the courage to do so. I had never once disobeyed what my mother asked me to do. I lived on her standards for the past eighteen years of my life, and it'd be correct to say that those years weren't the best. Minji had stopped talking about it to me now. She wanted me to do it when I was ready, but I couldn't help but notice the disappointment on her face every time the topic came up. Minji's mom had always welcomed me and been caring toward me, but my parents? They didn't even know that Minji existed.

"Han, are you okay?" Minji asked from beside me. We were sitting on one of the benches in the park in front of her apartment building.

"Yeah, sorry, just thinking about some stuff," I replied, giving her a light smile.

"Do you want to talk about it?" she asked. I sighed, a quite shaky sigh.

"No, not right now," I said.

"Okay, just know that I'm here for you whenever you need me," Minji smiled at me, a smile that instantly made my worries fade away.

"Thank you, Min," I said as I put my head on her shoulder, and we leaned back into the bench, admiring the view of little kids running around the park, elder couples on a date, and everything else that represented life and happiness.

"Minji, could you spend the night at my place? I need help with math," I asked. It was a very lame excuse, and I didn't even know why I was making such excuses with my own girlfriend.

"Help with math? Love, you've never skipped a single math class," Minji replied with a light chuckle. She called me love. A simple nickname. It's just a nickname, Hanni. It means nothing. She probably didn't even think before saying it. No, she couldn't have.

"Did you just call me love?" I asked sweetly. I needed to ask so I didn't overthink something this small.

"Yeah, if you don't like it, then I'll stop. Sorr—" Minji said in a panicked tone, but I interrupted her.

"Would you call me that more often? Please?" I asked.

"Okay, love, I'll spend the night at your place, to teach you math and surely nothing else," Minji said through a smile. I was down bad for this woman.

"Then let's get going. I have a lot of math to catch up on," I said with a wink as I got up, pulling Minji away with me. She only laughed as she followed.

Minji's POV:

I couldn't help but keep looking at the girl beside me, driving with the most relaxed face as our fingers were intertwined on her lap. Was I blushing? Probably, but if anyone else were in this situation, they would totally understand. Not that I want anyone else to be in my situation; no, only I get to experience this with Hanni.