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Chapter 32

(Camilla's POV)

I was most definitely convinced that Lorraine hated me, and I knew that I couldn't change the fact that she hated me, no matter how many times I would try and apologize. I decided that seeing as it was Lorraine's house, I should just leave, I don't think she wants my presence in her house anymore.

After the karaoke night, I went into the room where I was staying, and I packed my stuff and I was going to leave that morning.

- next morning -

I woke up and I took a last shower before I went and said my goodbyes to everyone. Once I was done, I got my bag and car keys and went to the kitchen where everyone was, and they all looked at me.

"Guys, I'm convinced that Lorraine hates me, so I decided that I'd leave today because I don't think she wants me here.." I said, tears forming in my eyes as I said each word.

Carolyn stood still and then she walked to me and hugged me. Everyone was in shock, including Lorraine, everyone just stared at me open mouthed.

"I'm going to miss you so much Camilla..." she said while hugging me

"I'm going to miss you too, Carolyn" I replied, and the words got caught in my throat.

I walked to Lorraine and she just stared at me.

"Lorraine, you don't understand how sorry I actually am, and it breaks my heart that you hate me so much, I really wanted this summer to be everything we have wished for when we were kids, I'm so sorry you don't even understand how sorry I am.. and I will miss you so much when I'm gone." I said, and she just stared at me

"Lorraine come on show some sympathy.." Ed said but I shook my head

"Leave it Ed, I understand why she would be mad at me.." I said and I walked out of the kitchen

I felt someone grip onto my arm, it was a really tight grip, I turned around and I saw it was Lorraine, her face was expressionless.

"Don't leave..." she said, still expressionless, but I didn't listen to her, I loosened her grip on my arm and I walked to my car.

I walked with my head facing down, so my hair could cover my face because I looked like shit from all the crying.

I turned the car on, and I looked back and saw Lorraine standing by the main door, she still looked expressionless.

I shot her with a peace sign before I pulled out the driveway and drove back home.

I turned the radio on and I heard one of our favorite songs, Post to be.. I remember how she would drive and I would sit on Carolyn's lap even though it was illegal.. I started tearing up, thinking about how I fucked up so badly, and she would never forgive me.

My vision became blurry because I was crying, and then my phone started ringing, it was Carolyn, and I answered it

"Camilla please come back, Lorraine didn't mean anything and she didn't want you to leave.. please" she said and it sounded like she was crying

"No, she said I betrayed her, so I might as well just leave if I'm such a disgrace.." I said.

Carolyn handed the phone to Lorraine and she started speaking.

"Camilla I'm so sorry please forgive me and please come back.." she said and she was also in tears.

"No, you said we are no longer friends, you said I betrayed you and that you would never forgive me, and that's fine, just fuck out of my life" I said and then she gave Carolyn the phone back.

"So, did she talk to you?" she asked

"Nope, I told her to fuck out of my life" I said and then there was a huge crash, my phone fell and everything went black.

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