I love him (L.S.)

Chapter 10

Louis

"Hi Harry!" I walked into the almost empty store.

"Hey Lou" He replied walking up to me giving a quick hug.

"What's up? Buying someone a present?"

I looked around at all the toys wondering what would be suitable for a five year old.

"Z's Colleague's kid is turning 5 tomorrow. We're going to the party. So, Z asked me to get something."

Harry grinned looking around before suggesting a toy car.

"It's a girl Harry."

"So what? Things don't have a gender. Toys, Clothes, Make up. It's a free world, babe."

B a b e

I looked at the different kinds of cars and ended up picking a red, remote controlled one.

"Erm Harry... You know what I'll pick something else."

"Why Lou? This ones really nice."

"It's a little over the budget Harry. I'm sorry." I looked down at my fidgeting fingers.

"Oh don't be silly. I'll pitch in the rest."

"No. no. This is a present for someone. I can't ask you to do that."

"If it's for you, I could?" He asked with a smirk.

I looked away, feeling my cheeks heat up. I hear him chuckle.

"Here. I'll just have Zayn buy me a coffee later."

I grabbed the bag and left the store. Not before sending him a quick shy wave though.

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"Lou I'm going to the cafe with H. Do you want to come along?" Z asked standing near the door. I quickly rushed to get my shoes on. Tripping in the process.

"Slow down Kiddo. I'm not leaving without you." He said, laughing.

"Oh shut up." I walked past him, out the door.

It took a few minutes to reach the cafe. It looked very classy.

We went in to find Harry sitting at a table. He smiled widely when our eyes met.

"Hey guys." He greeted us with hugs.

Z and I sat on one side while Harry sat on the other.

"You brought Lou along." Harry mumbled to Z.

Did he not want me there.

I came just to see him again.

"Do you not want me here?" I asked before I could control myself.

His eyes widened comically.

"No! No, that's not what I meant." He took a deep breath before continuing. "It's good he brought someone along because I was wondering if it was fine if someone tagged with me too."

Zayn opened his mouth to ask who. But that question was answered when she sat down next to Harry.

So this is why he didn't want me there.

Of course.

"Sorry I took so long." Her hand on his thigh.

Calm down louis. You have no right to be jealous.

"It's alright Gem. They just got here anyways." He said bringing her into a hug.

Her eyes shifted to us.

"Hey Louis"

I forced a smile. "Hi Miss Styles."

She then stood up to give Zayn a quick hug over the table. Of course, not a tight one like Harry got.

"You can call her Gemma now Lou. It's okay." Harry said before looking at her for confirmation. She nodded giving him a sweet smile.

What else can I do other then smile and nod. So, I did exactly that.

The waiter came over to us asking for our orders.

"I'll have a Chai. Harry, Flat white?" He asked earning a nod. "I'll also get an Egg Mayo sandwich."

"Make that two please." Harry piped in with a sweet smile on his face.

"I'll just have an Italian Salad." Gemma said.

Eyes now turned to me.

"Erm... I'll have a hot chocolate." my eyes scanned the menu before turning to Z. "Can I get a chocolate croissant with that, Z?"

"Of course kiddo. Anything you want." He nodded to the waiter indicating to him that its all we wanted.

"I forget you're a kid sometimes." Harry commented with a small chuckle.

And that was my last straw.

"Excuse me..." I murmured getting up and leaving to the restroom.

I locked myself in one of the stalls and let the tears flow free.

Why would he even like me. I'm just a kid. A worthless ugly kid.

That thought made me let out a sob.

I heard a knock. "I'll be out in a minute Z" I said after clearing my throat.

"It's me Lou..."

Harry.

Tears were flowing once again.

The soft voice Harry uses with me, calling me Baby and Babe, Those gentle hugs. It all meant nothing.

Of course they meant nothing. I'm just a kid.

"Lou could you open the door please. I can hear you crying. What's the problem bub?"

There he did it again.

B U B

That's something I imagined calling him. When he is all soft and calls out to me, I've always wanted to reply with 'Yes bub?'

I can never do that.

He has someone else.

I can never be her.

I sniffled, Shuffling forward to open the door.

He walked in and locked the door.

He looked into my eyes for a couple seconds before pulling me into a tight hug.

His face was buried in my hair when he said, "Was it what I said? I didn't mean it in an offensive way Lou. I'm sorry."

He sat down on the closed lid of the toilet, pulling me onto his lap.

Shit like this is what gives me hope.

But no, I'm just seen as a kid.

It was silent. Harry was staring at me while I looked down and played with his fingers.

I stopped at his ring finger.

That ring.

I toyed with it for a minute before slowly removing it from his finger.

My eyes were focused on his expression through my action.

He was looking intently at what I was doing.

He didn't stop me though.

"I like this ring" I said, experimentally.

"Yeah?"

"Mhmm It's really pretty."

"You can have it if you want" I turned to him with a shocked face.

He chuckled at my expression. "It doesn't fit me anymore Lou. It's tight. I'm sure it will look pretty on your cute little hand." He said grabbing my hand in his.

"But..." I looked into his green eyes, voice barely there, "but it's your wedding ring..."