Finding my mate.

morning mess

Ella

I woke up in a sweat, and I was breathing heavy. I curled harder into whatever I was holding, It was soft, and sobbed, images of my dreams flashed through my eyes, I was back there living with my parents, and they were beating me. I jumped startled when I felt a hand rub small circles on my back.

"shhh its okay, your ok" A gentle soft voice spoke

I then I remember I was with Mrs black, still in her arms, I wanted to protest and go home, but the way she was rubbing my back and the warmth she was providing me, plus the soft voice she was using to tell me everything was ok had my brain go fuzzy putting me right back to sleep.

The next time I woke up I was no longer on the couch, or in Mrs black lap, I found myself sad at the thought, but I shoved that the thought deep inside me when I remember yesterday.

OH MY GOD, I slept next to a vampire, it was one if the best sleep I have ever had but a vampire she could have killed me.

"Don't you think it is a little early to feel that scared"

Mrs. Black voice startled me, and me to jump and fall off the bed.

I scrambled up.

"Please don't hurt me I am sorry, I won't tell anyone"

I made eye contact with her,
She looked sad and confused. I immeiedlity felt guilty, and embarrassed. Causing me to look down.

"I am sorry, I didn't mean to freak out, it is just hard to process please forgive me"

I don't know why I said what I said, it came out of instinct.

I her finger tips left my chin up, forcing me to look back at her eyes.

"Why do you feel guilty, you did nothing wrong, being scared of the unknown is normal"

Shame flooded through me, and if she wasnt holding me chin up, I know I would be staying at the floor.

"I guess I thought taking the blame for whatever your feeling would make you feel better, because you looked sad" I admitted trufully.

She leaned down and gave my forehead a kiss, "baby it's ok, I was only sad because you were scared by me, I wish for my mate to not be scared of me, but I know that will take time"

I gave her a small smile, and whispered a thank you.

"I made breakfast, since you slept the whole day, yesterday and didn't eat very much, I figured you would like to eat"
She explained

My nerves kicked in, of course I would like to eat, but it was something different when she fed me, I didn't feel guilty or, didn't repel, in fact I enjoyed it. I looked down shyly

"Can you please feed me again" I asked softly.

She broke into a huge grin, and gave me a hug.

"Your so cute when your shy,  of course I will feed you, anything to make sure you eat, your way to skinny"

I smile shyly, she cared so much.

We walked to the kitchen, where there was two plates of German pancakes, my mouth literally watered, German pancakes where my favorite breakfast of all time. Mrs. Black seemed to have noticed my excitement and hurried and led to me the same stool as yesterday.

"Open" she asked

I immeideitly listened opening my mouth for her to feed me. I moaned at the taste, these where the best German pancakes I have ever had.

"You like" she ask feeding me another bite.

"Hmm, these are so good, thank you for making them" I reply with a smile.

She just chuckled a little bit


Time skip after breakfast

"Please let me help you with the dishes, I feel bad" I pouted. Mrs. Black made and fed me breakfast and is now refusing to let me help her, I just don't want her to feel like I am using her.

"Ella, please, it is just a couple of dishes I can handle it, besides I don't want you to hurt your self"

I scoffed " I know how to do dishes I am not some 5-year-old kid, I am a adult that knows how to wash dishes" to prove my point i gave her my best pouty face and I stomped my foot. Mrs black just cooed at me, "yes you are a big girl" she said it but the way she said made me believe she was lying, I am a big girl. "please, let me wash, all show you, that I am a big girl" i begged. She sighed "how can I say no to someone as cute as you" i ignored her comment and took her place washing dishing.

I looked down at my soaking wet shirt, maybe I don't know how to wash dishes properly.

I felt tears pricked my eyes, I didn't mean to make a mess.

"Hey what wrong"

I didn't say anything I just looked down at the huge water mess.

Mrs black, cupped my chin

"I am sorry "

She just smile "it is ok your just wanted to help I forgive you"

Warmess flooded through my body, and i leaned into hers, she was so sweet and nice.

She just chuckled slightly, "let's go get you cleaned up, I have some extra cloths that might fit you"

I kept thinking that any moment she was going to get mad at me.

"I have a t shirt you can wear if you want, it might be kind of big" 

I kept thinking she would be mad but she didnt she just simply handed me a t shirt and led me tot the bathroom where i changed privetley. 

I walked out still feeling guilty

"I am sorry, i guess i got carried away"  i apologized again walking into the kitchen 

"baby it is ok, you just wanted to help" she replied the same thing when I apologized earlier 

I glance at the clock  10:20 

"shoot i have to get to class in 10 minutes" 

i was about to run out the door when i felt her gentle hand stop me

"I can give you a ride I have to head back over there anyway" 

"are you sure I can run, hopefully it is not to far" i stated now realizing I have no idea how to get to the campus from here. 

she kissed my forehead 

"yes I am sure, now lets go, dont want you late"