ella
It was now the next day and I was jn Amelia's bed awake. she was aleep next to me, and I was jsut thinking about everything, was I really going to become a queen of supernaturals, that thought didnt scare as much as it did before but still it was a lot. I think I am starting to accept it a little more.
i felt movement next to me, Amelia turned around wrapping ehr arm around me gently.
"good morning baby how did you sleep" she asks giving me a kiss on the forehead.
warmness spread through me, it was like all my thoughts vanished. I smiled
"good you"
"so good best sleep i have had in a week" she joked, causing me to giggle because i understood why she said it.
We just laid there content until we heard a knock on the door.
"Come in" Amelia called out.
It was Annie, she looked so casual for the current queen. At first glance I would not have been able to tell. That she rules so many people
"Good morning guys I made breakfast if you want it" She spoke gently almost like she was nervous, it was weird
I glanced at Amelia who gave me a soft smile.
"OK thank you, we will be there in a sec"
Amelia replied saving me from having to talk,
"Thank you" I replied snuggling really close her.
She wrapped her arms tight around me kissing me on the head "Of course baby, I would do anything for you"
I pulled back my mind racing again, my heart was ready to accept everything but my brain wasn't especially now that I think I am little. what happens if amelia finds out and then changes her mind
"Hey what is it"
"What happens if they don't accept me, I want to be a good queen for you, with you" I voiced my concern without giving out exactly what i was talking about
"Those are valid questions but Ella you are mine, and I don't care what they think I think you are perfect and i want to take care of you"
I tried to act like what she didn't spread warmness through my body even though it did.
"but why, I am not who think I am I have problems that would make being a queen difficult"
"Ella again I don't care you are worth it you are my mate and I lo-"
"NO" I screamed. interrupting her I knew what she was going to say and I wasn't ready she barely knew me and I barely knew her.
"Please don't finish that sentence it's a death trap i am not the person you think I am I can't let you think you love someone i am not." I spoke in a rush, it was to early she didn't know me.
"Then show me the real you let me in stop pushing me away." she made it seem so easy like I should just put everything I have onto her, but I can't it is to hard.
"I cant let you in because, well because I can barely love myself, trust me if you even knew have of the things, I have done you would hate me too" I spoke in honestly I was broken traumatized and i could be a little. 3 things she didn't need to know about
I look down at the window watching the sun peek through not looking her in the eyes but her fingers find my chin and force my eyes to meet hers.
"Ella you're talking to a 500-year vampire, if there is anything I have learned it's that everyone makes mistakes, including me."
she reassures me in a gentle voice, and I start crying.
she pulls me into a hug.
"Oh baby, you deserve the world, I want to give it to you but you have to tell me what bothering you."
god, what does she want me to say? Oh yeah by the way I think I am a closeted little and I have no idea how to prove it because I have never been able to slip but I have certain characteristics that little ones tend to have.
I took a deep breath, she almost said she loved me right?
"Fine I think I am a little."
she pulled back and took it as rejection. So before she could say anything i spoke quickly
"I am sorryI know what you going to say i am supposed to be a queen with you, but how can I when I want to act like a baby, and I know that but I jut think I am it ok if you don't want me I know it is a lot and I no it is a incon-"
"Baby your rambling now why would think being a little is a problem" I looked at her quickly
" wait you know what little are"
she gave me a small chuckle "You really don't know how this whole mate thing works" I blushed with embarrassment and nodded no looking away
"well looks t it like this we are soulmates each other's half. so if you think you a little and i am your mate what do you think that makes me?"
again my head snapped up.
"you mean that-" I couldn't finish the sentence in fear of being wrong
"yes baby I am a mommy destined to be with you, every part of you including little you"
I squeezed her everything finally felt lifted if she could accept me for being a little then maybe she could accept my tower problems.
"Alright little one how about break fest"
I smiled and nodded. Food sounded good.
A/N hey guys sorry it has been a mintue, just been really busy. Anyways tell me how it is and as always please vote and comment.
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Finding my mate.
ParanormaleElla Anderson. Is a shy closeted little. Growing up in her family was hard, she never had any relationship with her dad infarct she avoided him. Her dad verbally and mentally abused her making her extremely self-conscious. Ella was always relatively...
