champagne problems

5

But you'll find the real thing instead. She'll patch up your tapestry that I shred.

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Charlotte's POV:

December 2019

7 months ago, I decided to leave Camden, a sleepy, peaceful town in Maine in exchange for the bustling, busy streets and breathtaking skyscrapers of Brooklyn. 7 months ago, I decided to take control of the steering wheel of my life, and made the biggest turn that brought me to where I am right now.

As a first year law-student in the proud law school of Brooklyn, and as a simple woman with huge dreams, I could say that I am proud of what I have achieved in just 7 months. The hard work, sweat, sleepless nights and heartaches that I have endured have paid of pretty fast as I am slowly getting closer into becoming a lawyer.

But despite this mini achievement, I couldn't help but miss everything and everyone that I have left back home, and everything that I have give up in order to get where I am right now. My mother, my friends, Heidi, Tina, Marima and Chompu. And my greatest love, Engfa.

I wonder how are they now? Do they miss me as well? Are they mad at me for leaving without saying goodbye? All of these questions went to occupy my mind. I never tried to reach out to them, afraid of hearing how mad they are about me leaving, and also, to avoid getting home sick as I was sure if I ever hear any of their voice, I would definitely cry.

Engfa.. I wonder how is she right now? Though I still feel guilty about what I did to her, I couldn't help but think of her everytime my mind wasn't occupied by case studies and case reviews. And tonight, it was exactly what I am doing. She's probably still mad at me. Does she have a new girlfriend now? It's been seven months already. As the thought of Engfa having a new girlfriend crossed my mind, I couldn't help but feel a bit sad, and at the same time, relieved. Sad, because whether I admit it or not, Engfa still have a piece of my heart, and she'll always have it no matter what. And the thought of her having someone by her side that is not me sent a pang of hurt within my heart. But I made my decision seven months ago. And I know she's better off without me. At the same time, relief washed over me upon thinking of Engfa finally moving on. She deserves everything that is good in this world, and Engfa deserves someone better than me.

As my mind continued to be dragged by the thoughts of people I held dear, I was enveloped by a deep sense of melancholy. It will take me a very long time before I see them again. And how I wish time would fly fast, so that I would be able to come home. I didn't notice the time's passing, as I unconsciously surrendered to the pull of a dreamless sleep.

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I woke up with the sound of my alarm. I reached for my phone on the bedside table and went to turn the alarm off without opening my eyes. My body and my mind was exhausted despite having 6 hours of sleep. But hey, it's a new day full of uncertainty and new learnings. So, despite the protest of my eyes to remain shut, I opened them slowly, adjusting to the bright sunlight peeking from the curtains of my window. I sighed heavily and finally decided to leave the comfort of my single sized bed.

It was 6:30 AM when I took a glance at my bedside watch. Great, I have plenty of time to prepare. I went to the bathroom to take a shower and to get ready to start my day.

As I was getting dressed, I heard my phone received a notification multiple times as it vibrated for a moment. I peeked at the notification bar and saw multiple messages from my mother, Marima, Heidi and a miscall from Chompu. I went to check their message.

Marima 💓
Happy birthday, Char! I miss you. You owe me. See you soon, and take care of yourself there okay? Love u!