I needed to tell them. Knox, Meeks, and Pittsie. I needed to tell them that I could see Neil. That I could talk to him. They had to know! They just had to! If it was real I'm sure Neil visits them too.
We are settled in my room, Me on Neil's bed and the three of them on mine. "I'll sound insane but I met Neil. I saw him in my dreams and he was real-" Before I could finish a pissed off Pitts cut me off.
"Todd, I'm tired of this bullshit! You see him in all your dreams."
"This is different! You have to understand!" I said in confidence as I stood up.
"His face was clear and I dreamt of him twice. And he remembers the first time I dreamt of him!"
"That doesn't prove shit, Todd. It's a goddamn dream. Get your life together, will you?" Knox said as he stood up to leave but before he could step out I held him by his collar.
"Don't you dream of him too? Him in the green sweater together with the crown on his head. The same crown he wore on his play while both of you stand inside a big white room?" I asked, hoping he'd say yes. Hoping that I wasn't the only one and that they were wrong!
"Todd, leave me alone. Don't talk to me and don't even come near me. " He said emotionlessly as his gaze turn empty.
"You had the same dream didn't you?" I asked again while my grasp turn tighter. He only shook his head without even looking at me before he harshly pushed my hand away and left with the others.
So now I suppose he really isn't real. Maybe I should just accept the fact he's dead then. I could just be really delusional right? I could just be missing him a lot. But he still felt so real. So alive and it's ironic because... you already know.
Do you think I should just kill myself too? I don't really think I have anything to live for anymore. Neil's gone, Charlie's gone, Keating is gone. The first and last few people that were to take care of me. All fucking gone. And I'm only giving more problems to those who don't deserve it with my grieving.
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FanfictionEver since Neil's passing, he had visited Todd's dream like a haunting nightmare. So Todd takes this as his chance to talk to him, but it isn't so simple as he thought it would be. -Angst -fanfiction this is going to be like really short guys😟😟😟 ...
