When The Curtain Falls

07

I saw how Ciena was really invested to Ghail. Natutuwa naman ako dahil nakukuha niya na yung deserve niyang fan service kay Ghail. Sana ako rin. Ghail was really sweet at talaga namang appreciative.

"Miss ko na siya." Nasa lock in kasi si Freydah para sa isang Drag Competition.

"Mag hintay ka nalang kasi." Almost 3 weeks na kong nag hihintay oh.

"How I wish I can go to him when this pangungulila strikes." I opened my ig app then saw something ONLINE SI FREYDAH?! "GIRL LOOK AT THIS! ONLINE SIYA! SHE EVEN LIKED HIS DRAG MOM'S POST!" Nagtata talon ako sa apartment ko dahil sa nakita ko.

"Hoy! Mag hunos dili ka nga!" Pinaupo ako ni Ciena at pinakalma ako dahil sa tuwa. Maybe I will try to go to Freydah more often pag nakalabas na siya ng lock in taping niya.

"SINO BA YUNG TALON NANG TALON DYAN!" I forgot na si Sol pala ang nasa baba ng apartment ko.

"Naka labas na siya!" I don't know but it sounded like he's free from bahay ni kuya or something lol.

"I'm trying to get some sleep, magpatulog ka naman!" Lumabas na si Sol at bumalik sa apartment niya. Someone's grumpy.

"Nag ig story na siya!" Nag ningning ang mata ko nang makita kong may ig story siya.

"Asan siya?" Ciena was just scrolling habang kausap ako.

"I don't know. Mukha bang kasama niya ko." Sana nga. My heart was just happy because he's now in the outside world lol.

Those almost 2 weeks, I've been praying for Freydah to slay that competition.

"I want to go to him so baaad." Napahiga nalang ako sa sobrang pangungulila ko sakaniya. Nakaramdam nalang ako ng pagod at after that ay di ko namalayan na nakatulog na ko. 

Nang magising ako ay may liwanag na at wala na si Ciena sa apartment ko. When I checked my socials, I saw something na ikakaiyak ko ata, nag Euphoria si Freydah kagabi!

"Bat kasi ako nakatulog." I was about to cry but I remember, may next week pa naman, I can go to him next week.

I prepared my breakfast at nag scroll lang nang nag scroll. I need to really focus on looking for law school here in the Philippines. Pero thinking about me taking law school while fangirling scares me, ayoko ng multitasking na yan when it comes to priorities.

Maybe I should focus on fangirling now. I've been in school my whole life, I need a break. Hays, morning realizations.

I saw a picture of Freydah hanging in my wall, I hang a sintra board of Freydah sa apartment ko para lagi ko siyang nakikita.

"She's so pretty." I can't see myself dealing with serious relationship while Freydah was on my sight. Is this still an admiration? Idol pa rin ba ang tingin ko sakaniya?

"Mali! Hindi pwede!" Natatawa nalang ako sa mga naiisip ko.

Days passed like a walking turtle. Sobrang bagal ng araw! Sana friday na agad.

When friday arrived, may bagyo pa! But nothing can stop me from seeing him, I miss him so much.

"Hindi pa rin naman sure kung andon siya." I was preparing and talking to Ciena at the same time.

"Then bat tayo pupunta?" Tapos na siya mag prepare at ako nalang ang hinihintay.

"Kasi ang dalas niya ron." Pero deep inside me ay iniisip if it's really worth the try dahil malay ko bang di pala worth it at hindi siya pumunta.

"Whatever! Dalian mo nalang dyan." After I prepared ay umalis na kami. Nandon kaya siya? Is this really worth it?

"Sa stage ka ba nakatingin o sa pinto?" Nasa taas kami ngayon, kitang kita ang baba ng euphoria.

"Sa stage!" Defensive kong sagot. But deep inside me, hoping na bumukas yung pinto at siya yung tao na papasok.

Natapos ang first set at walang Freydah na nagpakita. Naupo lang ako sa isang gilid habang sila ay nagkakatuwaan at nag paparty. Niyaya ko si Ciena na lumabas saglit, hoping na makita siya sa labas.

"Nauubos na social battery ko." That was the words I uttered when we got outside. Feeling ko ay hindi ko kayang huminga dahil napaka sakit sa dibdib na umasa akong nandito siya. Hard pangungulila na yung nararamdaman ko.

"Malay mo sumunod siya! Wag ka mawalan ng pag-asa!" Saglit lang kami sa labas at pumasok na rin dahil naulan.

Second set na at wala pa rin siya. Patapos na ang second set nang

"Si Freydah oh!"