𝐖𝐎𝐒𝐎 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐒

•"i missed you star-girl" (Leah Williamson and Lucy Bronze)

in the weeks following mine and leah's break up, me and lucy have only gotten closer and here she was again sitting on my sofa watching my favourite tv show. not that i'd complain, i appreciated her company especially right now.

"you know, y/n i only picked this because i know it's your favourite?" she jokes, half serious. i smiled softly in response before turning back to watch Kurtain set fire to the scarecrow festival causing me to laugh before lucy chokes on her drink chuckling, realising what's coming next in the show she's now glued to.
we sat like that for a while before she spoke again,
"are you ready to talk about what happened with you and leah? i know it's still fresh but i think it's good to get it off your chest." a sympathetic smile placed on her lips, my response was rushed but still slow, saying the first thing that came to my mind, "she doesn't want me anymore luce, it's as simple as that. i knew it before she did." not wanting to tell lucy that she was the reason.

she takes a sharp breath, letting the silence afterwards fill the room. looking into my eyes as she starts to chuckle to herself.

"what's so funny bronze?" leaves my lips, almost cracking a smile also. "y/n. do you want to know a secret i've kept from you for a long..long time?" she asks hopefully, turning her body to barely touch mine as her thigh rests on mine. i don't say anything, just nodding in response. i thought we told each other everything, at least i did, clearly i was wrong.

taking a deep breath, she chuckles again mainly to herself before moving her eyes back to the tv, "that night when you first met me and leah" i listened intently wondering where the story was going, "she really snaked me that day." she said with a stern face, no more laughter escaping her mouth. "lucy, what do you me-" she cut me off, placing a hand closer to my thigh but not quite touching it, "i saw you dancing in that club before anybody else did, i made the mistake of mentioning you because i was an idiot. i told her i wanted to talk to you but when i went to grab the next round she was already out of her seat talking down your ear."

i sat in shock unsure what to reply before she continued giving me no time to interject, "from that day i promised myself i wouldn't let it come between our friendship, not even if i really wanted it to. i wanted you to be happy. i wanted to be there for you. every argument, every happy moment. i knew when you'd come to the games you were there for her, i liked to imagine you wanted to watch me play more. i knew i was kidding myself, getting in my own head but every time you were there i seemed to play better." she bit her lip looking at the tv, finally giving me time to respond.

"lucy." i started, testing the waters as her eyes found mine, "you could've told me. i know it wouldn't have changed anything but you're my best friend. i'm glad you've told me now and i'm glad to have you here for me." i replied, unsure i believed my own words. her eyes moved to my lips before meeting my eyes again. "y/n i know right now is a hard time for you but i want you to know that i still feel that way, when you're ready i'll be here for you. not just as the shoulder you can lean on... hopefully more."

i feel myself distancing further away as she moves closer, realising what leah fear about her was the truth. the thing that tore us apart, "lucy, i can't do this. i need to be alone right now. please head home and i'll call you later" i say softly as her face turns into a frown, placing her hand on the back of the sofa before standing. "are you sure you want to be alone?" she asks as she collects her car keys and jacket. "yes."

she nods, wanting to stay but knowing that isn't what's best for me. i walked her to the door, i feel her hand place on my back. our eyes lock again only to be broken by the sound of keys from the other side.