𝐻𝒾𝓈 𝒹𝒽𝒶𝒹𝓀𝒶𝓃

~time that passed~

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4 months later

Its been four months since she is gone and it feels like 4 lives without her 4 months without my heartbeat my daisy is like four minutes without oxygen. Breathless. I couldn't eat properly..think properly..Sleep properly.. Yeah sleep.. I haven't slept enough and it resulted in me getting more dark circles and pale skin ayra always scolded me for it.. I shifted with my family 2 months ago. And it wasnt actually that bad.. Its quite nice.. They all loved me i just didnt wanted to accept it... Par ek jagh khali hai mere andar.. Jo sirf usko chahti h..

Ayra knew the reason.. I told her how much of a coward i was... That i couldn't protect her..she got mad at me and stopped talking to me which hurted me but i still made it up to her. Ishan and vivaan both stayed at hostel to staw away from the cold air of our house but when they got to know i came back they came running like kids when they see their favourite things and took me in a bone crushing hug. I made a invisible time table so i that i give them enough time that they deserve..the love that i was not able to give them..I have been a beast at work keeping myself buzy because everytime i get my mind of work her thoughts cloud my mind..i became more strict..firing worthless employess and scolding them yelling at them for any minor mistakes.

Four months and i am beast again she was only one who could handle me without her i dont know what happened to me. There were strings that connected me to her and she had those tied around her fingers.. So in short i danced on her fingers but now that she is not here it just sit right..

I miss her without her everything is empty. I find myself engrossed in her thoughts often but i can't help it.. Its not in my hands. If i could turn one company upside down then this was nothing.. Atleast that was what i thought but noo...its fucking hard more than i thought ughh..but now i have made up my mind..I will save her from this world..iwill make her mine at any cost..like a river makes its own way i will havemy own way to her heart.. 2 more months and i will make you mine dear avni. I sighed and closed my eyes leaning my head on my chair.

6th month 1st week

I sighed and crossed another date on my calander. Just 3 more weeks and i will be back to my place, my people, my friends,.. I will be back to my home.. Where i will be at peace.we were at our assigned room studying.. Aastha was asleep she stayed up late. My side of area was organized and hers was messy.. There were plates and her clothes and bags books spread all over the place.

I picked everything up and placed them at their place and threw her clothes in the cloth basket. Just then a message popped up it was josh. I replied to his question saying no and closed my phn.

I have made many friends here and they all are sweet i came to know about more interesting things and leveled up in my stream. The results were out 4 months ago and we all are welcomed in our last year of medical college finally!. I am no more sulking over why he wanted me away from him. In these months i have thought it through and came to realise how much his presence matters to me.. That i have always loved him from the start..

I feel that i have grown much more than my age. In these months i have realised many things and thought about everything that happens or my past or my future. I have been sorting them all out. Aastha was as comforting and lovely as always tho i did witness some changes in her. Her tongue has gotten sweet over the months no more bitter words but yeah being sassy but still calm is her body nature that can't change.

We both were praised because we did a nice job here even after being the youngest here and it really makes me happy.
Now one thing that i know for sure is i want him.. In my present and in my future both. If i have to fight to it i will.. I wont give up.. He had his reasons to let me go.. He wanted me safe but now i will learn how to keep myself safe too.. I will cross any bridge that takes me to him even if its covered with pebbles and thorns .. Mai  us hqr hadd ko tod dungi jo mujhe mere yash se alag kregi...

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