ᴛʜᴇ ᴅɪꜱᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏꜰ ᴜꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ꜱᴍᴀʟʟ ᴛʀᴀɢᴇᴅɪᴇꜱ

i remember us / understandable

i remember / understandable

i keep bringing you up in conversation
and then in that awakard sort of silence
where my friends scramble trying to figure out
what to say because i just called you my boyfriend
i remember

i remember your empathy washing over my apathy
seemingly cleansing me with waves of blue emotion
makeing me feel whole even for a second

i remember looking over and seeing your deep brown eyes looking into mine
and feeling like my entire being, my entire soul
was on display just for you

i remember that you are not mine anymore

i remember that it's my fault

i remember how earlier today
i saw one of your friends in the hallway
and went to wave

he glared at me so fiercely
it was like he was tying to bore a hole into my skull with nothing but his eyes

i remember how just yesterday
when we had all been laughing at lunch
he told me that i was basically one of you
that i hung around so much
he saw me as just another one of his friends

i remember how your face feel
when i said we should break up

i remember how you could only
bring yourself to utter one word
"understandable"