ᴛʜᴇ ᴅɪꜱᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴏꜰ ᴜꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ꜱᴍᴀʟʟ ᴛʀᴀɢᴇᴅɪᴇꜱ

a love letter to death

a love letter to death

I was three
when I found out what you where
when I listened silently as my mom told me
that my great grandmother was no more

I didn't really grasp it then
the fact that life could end so suddenly
the idea that one day somone could be there
and the next not

I was eight
when I learned the fate of the universe
that the sun would one day supernova
consimeingn everything it it's path with fiery rage

i found it both ironic and strangely comforting
that the very thing that gives us life
would be humanity's downfall in the end

I was fourteen
when my best friend tried to end her life
she jumped out in front of a moving car
desperately reaching for your cold embrace
the driver hit his breaks just in time

it truly hit me then
my own dreadful insignificance 
the role you play will play in my life
as the inevitable end, the cold dark void

the fact that there was millennia before me
and will be millennia behind
in that i will have no part
one day my heart will just stop
i will lose all consciousness be thrust into your unwilling embrace and cease to exist

i concluded then that the thought of you
is equally as comforting
as it is terrifying