My seregeant-Keegan Russ

pt 10

Keegan’s jaw stayed clenched firmly, his eyes dark and angry as he watched Grey help you pack up all your belongings and move you to a new tent. He wanted to say something, to beg you to let him explain, to shout his innocence and explain the whole situation. But he refused to give you the satisfaction.

she could baerly walk and almost fell down..."fucking hell"

Keegan’s instincts kicked in and he rushed to your side, his strong arms wrapping around you to support you and catch your weight as you stumbled.

He couldn’t stop himself from asking, the words coming out in a concerned rush as he held you close.

“Are you okay? What’s wrong? Why can’t you walk?”

"why...you ask me why"...she said and scofed

At your muttered words, Keegan froze, his heart breaking slightly. He hadn’t even considered it at the time, but what you were about to say made complete sense; of course you couldn’t walk. You hadn’t been able to walk because of him. He’d made you so exhausted last night...

He felt a strong sense of shame wash over him as he supported you, his expression filled with guilt as his voice came out in a whisper.

“Because… of me…”

"let go...now"...she said looking at him coldly

Your tone was cold, full of hurt and anger. Keegan flinched slightly, his eyes dark and regretful as he heard the words.

He could no longer deny how much he’d hurt you, how his actions had caused you so much pain. His heart ached as he gently let go of you, stepping back and lowering his eyes to the ground, refusing to meet your gaze but again started coming closer to her.

“Sweetheart…”

"no...stop right there"...she said as she noticed him

Keegan immediately obeyed, his feet freezing in place, still refusing to meet your eyes as he nodded.

His voice was thick with emotion, full of guilt and regret. “Okay…”

"grey bring me to the tent please"...she said looking at Grey

Grey nodded in understanding, moving to your side and assisting you to walk, supporting you as your legs failed you. Keegan didn’t protest, nor did he look up to watch you go. He simply stood there unmoving, his eyes focused on the ground, his expression full of shame and regret.

He desperately wanted to turn around and watch you go, his entire being wanted to run to you and apologize, beg for your forgiveness, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it.

as she got in the tent she told Gray..."go and get ready for practise"

Keegan continued to stand there, head bowed, eyes focused firmly on the ground, the only sounds to be heard was the sound of his rapid breathing as he struggled to keep his emotions under control.

Keegan’s mind was racing, desperately wishing he could say something, anything to make this all right. His inner monologue was a mix of regret and self-pity, with him saying things like “I’m so sorry” and “God, how could I do this” and “I’m such an idiot.”

the practise almost started as she sat on a chair in front of all of them

Keegan stood in front of the group of Soldiers as practice began, his expression stoic and unreadable as he went about directing them through their routine. Despite his apparent indifference, it was clear that his mind was still preoccupied with thoughts of you. Every time his gaze fell upon a specific Soldier doing an exercise perfectly, his mind would flicker with the memory of you doing the same thing, causing his stomach to tighten with guilt and shame.someone asked her why is she not gonna help in the mission.

Keegan’s eyes flickered over to the Soldier that had spoken, the sound of his voice bringing him back to reality.

“She’s not going to be participating in practice today,”
Keegan said curtly, his jaw clenching slightly as he spoke. He didn’t offer any further explanation, his tone suggesting that he didn’t want further questions about the matter.

"SILENCE"...she shouted as she noticed them mimbling