Regret with Love

Chapter-12

  I feels all my energy is drained out from my body ,each and every muscles aches like ever before ,my throat felt dry and sore, I can see only darkness ,and slight voice of someone calling my name. Why iam feeling like this ,abruptly I remember the previous incidents and the shrilling cry of my babies ,I think iam not a good mother, I can't even take care of my babies ,I need to feed my babies ,I need to see them.

I try to open my eyes ,but it is very hard for me to do that again I try to open but this time I succeed.  But the first face I see is non other than my mother-in -law ,her eyes are red ,it's like she cry for quiet some time. Is she crying for me?

Suddenly I remember my babies I need to feed them ,I try to get up and she helps me with a sweet motherly smile in her countenance ,I try to smile but I can't do that

I hear the murmuring voice of my babies , I turn to my side but the shocking thing is Asher, he  is with them ,it is like they are   having a deep conversation between them ,I laugh this time Asher  gives me shocking look ,like he is seeing ghost ,even my father who enters the rooms give a shocking countenance, after sometime they recovered from their shock

"Father ,can you bring my babies to me, Please"

Asher gives me a irritations  look but soon he takes my babies and bring them to bed.

I put my babies on my lap and kiss them with all my might ,I can't be a bad mother to them ,I want to give them a jovial life, I kiss all over their face

They open their eyes ,and they have a ample amount of resemblance with their father but their ears and nose looks like me , they are the identical twins but Levi have a brown hair and Liam have a dark black hair ,this is the only difference between them.

Levi Miller and Liam Miller is the name given by the grandfather and iam glad that the grandfather names my babies.

Both of them search my face but within a second their focus is fully on their food, they even murmur something to me ,it is like they are asking me food. I kiss both of their faces.

When I rise my eyes I came face to face with Asher ,he is keenly looking me and their is also sadness mixed with love in his eyes. I turn my face to look for my father but no one  is their even the door is locked ,

Oh god now iam alone with this man already my guilt and regret is killing me, now I don't know  how to face him

" you can go out ,I need to feed them"

"Yah you can feed them ,is their any problem"

Yah man you are my problem , why he isn't understanding, I need to feed them at a same time for that I need to open up my dress fully, if I leave one of them than another started to cry ,oh ghosh, he doesn't have any sense, I think he lose his senses.

"I --I mean I need to feed them at a same time so can you go out , I mean  you can understand it right"

"Yah Aurora Asher Miller  I can understand it and iam your husband ,I have no barrier to watch it  ,I mean it isn't like I don't see anything" he smirks at me

What is the problem with this idiot,and after hearing their father's stupid monologue my babies started to cry ,oh god what can I do with this sons and father

"Mrs. Fesity so you need anyhelp in opening the dress I will gladly help you , you know that right" he gives me his stupid wink ,no iam getting irks from the behaviour of this idiot

My babies raise their crying  in high pitch, without any choice I slowly open up my buttons ,and my hungry babies started to take their respective foods without anyone's help, when i raise my eyes I see Asher who is near the window and attending the call

I respect him ,but why doesn't he turn around May be iam looking ugly

'You looks ugly so Asher doesn't need you'
'What man will accept you after your betrayal'

No I didn't betray him No No

I feel my throats are sneezed and this time I even feel dizzy ,I adjust myself to protect my babies and avoid disturbing them

But the dizziness raises again , but suddenly I feel warmth ,when I see the source of warmth it is non other than my Asher he is sitting near to me ,his eyes is filled with fear and love , but this feeling are for me right ?can I beleive this'

"Drinks this lemon water it will helps you to get rid of dizziness"

He brings the tumbler near my mouth, without any words I consume them

After some time i feel refreshed ,I look my babies who is quenching their hunger without any idea about the  world ,I see the eyes of Asher , who is watching his babies ,I mean is he watching our babies right

When I raise my eyes with doubt ,he give me a smirk ,oh man this pervert man ,he is an idiot

He kiss my forehead and try to kiss the babies

"No No I mean you can kiss them after they get feeded"

"Ok ,I see ,  feisty you are looking beautiful ,you are glowing "

What he is saying again i see his eyes but this time his eyes have another emotion but abruptly I put my head down , even he get up from  the bed and move to the window to watch the scenery