chaos.
one week.
one week.
oh god it's only one week.
packing.
haven't packed.
need to sleep?
have I eaten?
packing.
boxes.
moving.
boxes.
big brown boxes.
pain.
did i fuck up?
fuck.
packing
focus on packing.
shoes.
box.
can't find a box.
where are the boxes?
shoes.
I don't wear these.
won't get rid of them though.
just get rid of the fucking shoes omg.
moving.
college.
college.
fuck.
one year left.
at home.
how.
what.
oh god.
floor.
sit on floor.
cry.
college.
where?
can't leave.
can't stay.
"good for you".
"won't be able".
oh god.
why can't i just be a normal kid.
I'm not a kid anymore.
adult?
teenager?
teenage love.
you talk of teenage love.
teenager?
mature.
so mature.
college.
adult?
fuck.
where are the boxes?
MFA?
BFA?
high school dropout?
3.22.
good?
good enough?
should be outstanding.
always been exceptional.
college is not the time to stop.
can't.
too difficult.
fuck.
i fucked up.
oh god.
you're never going to want to talk to me again.
cause of what i said.
overthinking.
no.
just the truth.
you hate me.
you don't even want me.
fuck.
college.
what am i going to do?
living.
adult.
life.
life is starting.
not ready.
too ready.
want it.
not ready.
apartment.
dorms.
out of state.
far away.
this is just,
half of the chaos in my brain.
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I Wrote This At Midnight
شِعرI Wrote This At Midnight is a collection of poems I have and will write, that were most likely written late at night (or just feel very chaotic). As always, thank you for your support, I hope you enjoy :) Warning: The poems included are not censored...
