Last kiss // PAIGE BUECKERS

TWO//FORTNIGHT

(Paige's POV)

It's horrible to admit , but even though everyone who knows our situation has been telling me I'm in the wrong, I have myself convinced that what happened, didn't happen. I'm not saying that Victorias's wrong in any way. I would never, and it makes no sense but in my mind, it's the same as it was, April 4th never happened. I didn't stop talking to her, then say those words that I regret more than ever. In my mind, she's still my person.

Today is June 20th 2021. In a fortnight, it would be 3 months since I last spoke to Victoria.
It's like a weight on my chest, knowing that I've messed up and that she's not in my life anymore. I know I made a big mistake, and I regret it every single day.

Victoria is not one to forgive easily, and I respect that. As much as it hurts, I understand why she doesn't want my apology. I hurt her, and she deserves better than that. I haven't tried to apologize yet but it's the right choice, she's happy with Nick. It hurts to say it because of how much I hate him. She is too good for him, he doesn't deserve someone as perfect as Victoria. No, I have to stop.

Being in the same friend group as ur ex-best friend is humbling(to say the least), especially when you were in the wrong. And I was wrong when I thought all our friends would stop talking about me and her when we all went home for the summer because as soon as I got home, it was my family. I haven't told my family about what happened because me and Victoria agreed we'd tell no one except our friends.(ts reference if anyone picked up)

For instance, Victoria has spent the 4th of July in Hopkins for the past 3 years and my family has grown to love her as their daughter, just as Kathy and Geno have with me(and the whole team at that but this isn't about them, it's about me and v).