Closure (Sebastian Sallow x MC)

Chapter 11

"I'll talk to Professors Hecat and Sharp about this, they are the most experienced with dark wizards." Professor Weasley looks at me kindly. "Thanks for coming to me with this, April. I'll keep you updated."

"You're welcome." I mumble and I excuse myself.

I feel like we've been talking for hours, but I doubt it was more than half an hour. She has asked me a few questions, mostly regarding how I found that list, but I told her just the necessary information, not involving Poppy and Natty in this. I know she wouldn't make any punishing measurement, but just in case.

My head hurts. After the nap in the library I was feeling great. I woke up minutes before Poppy and Natty arrived, but I didn't say anything to Sebastian. His hand on my hair felt great and the whole situation made me feel at peace.

Though, I was nervous too. He was so close to me I could hear him breath. And that closeness made my heart race. He was so gentle, so kind, stroking my hair so I would rest peacefully. I could smell him like that time he lent me his scarf, back at the Quidditch tryouts. I remember pulling his scarf up for a moment, so I could hide my blush, and all I could smell was mint. Just like this morning. When we are that close, it seems like my body loses its ability to perceive anything else that isn't him.

I wonder what he would look like if we changed positions. How does his face look when he's asleep? I bet he looks cute. Does he make noises? Does he snore? I will have to ask Ominis.

Anyways, my peacefulness didn't last long. After the conversation with Natty and Poppy I have the worst headache. All the anxiety has come back. I have an idea of why they have a list of names and descriptions of my friends, but I don't dare to think much about it. I just hope that Professors Hecat and Sharp don't think the same.

I go straight to my room. I'm not hungry, my stomach hurts like hell, and I want to be alone for a while. I know my friends may be worried, but I need some quiet now. And I want to write to my mom. It's the one activity I have found to calm myself lately.

I haven't told her about the rumours, and I don't plan to. She deserves some peace, and I don't want to worry her. I went through this alone before, I can do it again.

After laying in my bed with all the candles out for a while I get up. That didn't help with the headache at all. Maybe writing will.

I start the letter after reaching my desk in severe pain.

Hi mom! How are you?

I'm sorry it took me so long to write you back, it's been busy around here.

I'm happy to hear that uncle Harry has recovered from his flu. I'm sure he is as healthy as always by now.

I'm good. Classes have been really interesting, I'm learning so much this year. Before Christmas we are going to learn the Patronus spell! I'm so looking forward to it. I'm spending so much time with my friends too. Sebastian got accepted in the quidditch team of his house and the matches are going to start soon. Ominis asked me to say hi from him, he misses you. So, hi.

I start tearing up and force myself to stop writing. I don't like to lie to my mom and I really want to tell her everything. Right now I feel so alone, so lost. I have to fix this situation and I don't know how. The first time I had Professor Fig by my side, guiding me, but now I have nobody. I don't want to involve anyone in this, I don't want to lose anybody else. It's times like this when I miss him the most. How gentle and patient he was with me, teaching me all I needed to know before coming here. How he would go with me every time he could to help me with the keepers petitions. How he would cover my back in battle. The rules he broke to help me