My Love Life with a Vampire (boyxboy)

CHAPTER 19

I sat in the shower now, too weak to stand. And this is where I had finally begun to cry, letting out the frustration that had built up. So, I cried, and sobbed, and weeped, and wailed. I had never cried so much before at one time, it felt horrible. I could barely look at myself, naked in the shower. I had never felt so gross like I did now. I had never felt so weak like I did now.

Then I thought of Sebastian. Do I tell him? Do I tell anybody? Would he even care? He seemed so infatuated by her. But as I thought of all of this I couldn't help but to blame myself. Maybe if I were stronger, or somehow shooed her away beforehand. I missed Sebastian, I knew I definitely would need his support for this, but I don't know if I should bother him with this.

I spent about two hours in the shower, it didn't matter that the water was cold. Once I got out, I slowly got dressed, trying my best to not somehow startle myself. Then I left the bathroom and flopped onto my bed. I had left my phone in the bathroom, but I could still hear the buzz every time I got a notification. It just kept going and going, so I slowly got up to grab it.

The notifications were from Sebastian texting me. He sounded worried, probably because I hadn't been answering. I sighed and began texting out an apology with my shaky fingers. But before I could press send, the calling screen popped up. I took a deep breath, I didn't want to talk at all, my voice sounded raspy from all the screaming and crying.

For the first time ever, I didn't answer his call, I let it ring. Soon the ringing ended and I was able to send the apology text, then a text saying I couldn't call at the moment. He asked if I was okay then. I didn't know what to say at all. So I told him I was fine.

Then the conversation shifted to Callie. He talked about how it was nice to make a new friend; if only he knew. I didn't want to talk about her at all, but I couldn't tell him that, he seemed happy to talk about her. So who was I to deny him that? Shouldn't that be one of the main priorities of a relationship? To make sure the other person is happy.