My Love Life with a Vampire (boyxboy)

CHAPTER 29

(Sebastian's POV)

I woke up in my bed, all alone, like usual. The nights I spend with Oliver are always so euphoric for me. Getting to wake up and see him, there's nothing better.

But knowing what I have to do soon, just makes it seem like a dream. Soon I won't be able to wake up to him, I'll never be able to see his face in the mornings. Every morning will soon feel like this one. Dreadful, lonely, and filled with a want for him.

I should plan to meet up with him in a few days so I have time to prepare. I have to break up with him soon, it'd be better to do it in person than over text.

I wonder how he'll react. Will he be sad or angry or happy? I really don't know. If I had to guess, I think he'd be sad. Just thinking of him being sad though, it just leaves an ache in my heart. How could I live with myself if I ever hurt him?

I texted him about meeting up in a few days, there's no way I could face the situation if I heard his voice over a call. He agreed to meet me at the train station and I made sure not to plan anything past that. If I have to do this, it should be as soon as I see him. If I didn't then I'd just be making him all happy hanging out with me just for me to wreck that all for him.

Those next few days until I see him went by just like any day. I wish we were still in school so I could see him everyday, but I guess this is better. I spent the days moping around my house while just waiting. Waiting for the day I have to end everything I have with Oliver, waiting for the day I have to meet with a bunch of other vampire psychopaths.

And eventually, the day came. The day my life gets ten times more boring, the day I ruin Oliver's life. I got ready slowly, trying to take up as much time as possible. Then I made my way out of my apartment, out of the complex, and towards the train station.

I told him to meet me at the train station closer to his house so I had to ride the train. Also because the train station I live by has too many people, Oliver lives in a small neighborhood so his train station has a lot less people.

I got on the train and waited...What used to feel like the best train ride of my life, now turned to the hardest train ride ever. I felt nauseous, holding my head down, my eyes closed.

The train got to my stop, I had to slowly get up, my legs shaky, my stomach churning. I left the train and took a few seconds to stand still and catch my thoughts before lifting my head to look for Oliver. It didn't take long to find him, just standing around, waiting for me.

The sky was gray, fit for a day like this. The wind was just strong enough to subtly shake my hair as I slowly made my way towards Oliver. It's weird, it's summer time yet the weather seems to understand why a sunny day wouldn't help much.

As soon as he saw me his expression immediately lit up, taking a hit at my heart. "Sebastian!" He greeted me with a smile, already reaching out for a hug. But I stopped him, grabbing his arms and putting them back to his sides. He tilted his head, confused at my actions. "Oliver..."

"Hmm?"... " Do you know why I asked to meet you today?" He shook his head and I let out a sad sigh. "Oliver...I...can't see you anymore." I tried my best to sugarcoat it, trying not to say it out right. "Huh? What do you mean?" He tilted his head again, still confused by my words.

I let out a low groan and took in a big breath. Oliver reached for my hand, trying to help calm me. I racked my brain, trying to think of any way for this to go smoothly, any way for me to avoid the words 'break up'.

And it hit me, I could scare him away. Tell him the whole truth about what happened to Callie, let him know what a terrible person I am. Then he'd feel better about us breaking up, he'd be glad to not be with me, definitely.

"Oliver, I killed Callie." I looked him straight in the eyes, the shiny teal of his meeting the hard red of mine. That should've set sirens off in Oliver's head, he should know that's a red flag, literally looking him in the eye. But he didn't say anything.

"Oliver, I killed her. Oliver, I'm breaking up with you. You can't be with a murderer." I let it out, not being able to keep it in. "Wait...You're...breaking up with me?" Was all Oliver said in response. "Oliver, don't you get it? I killed Callie, I murdered her, I sucked out all of her blood, I'm the reason people think she just moved away."

"And...you're breaking up with me because of that?" His face twisted, tears filled his eyes. The next train was on its way, the one I planned to get on to go back home after this altercation. I have to wrap this up, I have to end our relationship.

I took a step back, a step away from Oliver. But he took a step forward, reaching out for me. "We're done. I'm breaking up with you. I can't see you anymore. How many ways do I have to say it for you to understand?" I took another step back, now becoming cruel with my words.

"What...? Sebastian...you can't leave me..." tears began streaming down his face, his voice cracked. I didn't say anything more, just turning away, finally walking away from him. I didn't look back, I couldn't take it. I could feel tears in my eyes, daring to fall down.

I could hear Oliver's sad whimpers and pleas coming from behind me. He wasn't following me, he stayed behind, sobbing and pleading. The train arrived once I was a few steps away from him, the sound of his voice becoming lower and lower.

The train doors opened allowing me to step in. I looked back for a second before I did. I looked back at Oliver, he sat on the ground, crying. The love of my life, crying on the ground, because of me. "Please, Sebastian...I'd rather die than be without you..." Was the last thing I heard from him before turning away and getting on the train.