1 Month • Mary's Due Date: 3 Weeks
- Luke Hemmings -
"Well, you didn't last long with her which is good because when the twins come, it'll be hard for them to believe their father didn't want them and moved on." Calum and I were having a movie night and as the movie played, we started talking about Ally and Mary.
"I wonder what names Mary wants her kids to be." I popped a popcorn in my mouth.
"Her kids?" Calum gave me the "uhm what the hell are you talking about" look.
"A few months back, I was driving home and I saw Mary at the doctors. I offered to drive her home, and she said yes. We talked and when she said "I have twins", obviously I was taken aback so I corrected her and said "we have twins" she said "I want to say 'we' but you never showed me enough that you cared" so I said "well, cause I had school and now that I don't I think they're ours." Then she got mad and said "oh, so since you didn't get in, you decided you'd be the father for them then and there." after that she left the car and went inside her house." I felt guilty when I told Calum that. I never knew that if I told someone this, it would hurt me more than ever.
"You screwed up big time." Calum gave me a pat on the back and went inside the kitchen.
I always thought how life would be so amazing if Mary liked me back, but then after experiencing that, it was hell. But why do I keep wishing that she still had feelings for me?
- Mary Jane Freeman -
"Mary, when your kids come out into this world, I hope you allow Luke to see them." Ally came over and we started talking about my kids and Luke. Mostly Luke.
"He has never shown anything towards me that says he'll be a father. I'll allow them to see Luke, but I'm not letting Luke come over to my house." I crossed my arms and shook my head.
"But why? Luke doesn't have the right to be here or are you afraid that he'll end up hurting you if you let him in?" Ally looked me directly in the eye.
"I won't let him. If he needs me, he'll give me a good reason to let him."
"Okay, suit yourself." I looked out the window and just wished everything will be fine.
- Luke Hemmings -
I drove to Greenville tonight and stopped by a cake store.
"A small ice cream cake please." I gave the cashier $10.
"Would you like anything written on it?" The cashier asked.
"Best Dad."
*
"Dad, I know I haven't visited you in a while, but I hope you forgive me. You know Mary?" I told my dad everything. And even though he's not there to respond, I know he'll give me a sign as to what I should do.
"I got you ice cream cake. I know you loved this, so I bought you some." I placed the cake next to my dad's tomb.
"Jack and Ben and doing fine, if you're wondering. Mom is still working day and night, if you're also wondering."
I stayed silent for a while. I looked around me and tombstones everywhere. I picked out grass and threw them everywhere. I wonder if I sleep here, will anyone look for me? A gush of wind blew and piece of paper sat next to me.
"Yes." It read. I looked around and no one was there.
"Fine, I'll go home." I started walking, but stopped.
"Dad, I love you. And even if you aren't here, I will still love you because you're father and nothing will ever stop me from loving you." I wiped my tears and continued to walk to my car. I drove back home.
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dang Lucas is emotional
