Unwanted Alpha (Book 1 of Alpha Series)

Chapter 11

Sam didn't talk to me the rest of that day nor the next day, no matter how hard I tried to get her to talk to me, much to the stupid voice's annoyance because it did not want me to talk to her at all.

I didn't like that I was being ignored by my only best friend and hated that the voice was happy about it.

Maybe now you can start making new friends, the stupid voice sneered, and I had a feeling that they narrowed their eyes in warning. Go talk to someone and get them to like you.

I closed my eyes and pressed my lips into a thin line, my heart aching and becoming filled with pain because I did not like it that she was ignoring me. But I don't want anyone else, I said, my voice barely above a whisper. I want her.

Well, you can't have her. She does not want you. The voice paused and sneered. The sooner you realize that, the sooner you will be happy.

But what if I am not happy..? I asked. I placed my head on the cafeteria table, not hungry at all after I pushed the tray in front of me.

Sam was near but not near enough. She didn't seem to have a problem eating because every so often, I would look at her and watch her take a bite of food before she stuffed her fork back into her dish.

Her nose was buried in a book while she ate, her hair falling into her face, but she didn't seem to care while she continued to read, swinging her legs back and forth while she read.

See? She doesn't even care about you. She hasn't even looked at you at all, the stupid voice said. All she cares about is that stupid book in her hands.

I didn't respond and set my jaw while I stared at her. I narrowed my eyes while I looked at her, praying that she would look at me to see how annoyed.

But she never did...

"Hey, stupid head," someone said to my left, and I whined ever so slightly and barely loud enough for him to hear, not knowing why the school bully was wanting to bully me so early on in the day.

Oh, Goddess, please let him not bully me today, I silently prayed while I closed my eyes and pressed my lips into a thin line. I don't want to deal with him.

Too bad because you are going to deal with him, the voice said gleefully. Maybe now you can shun your "best" friend.

I pressed my lips into a thin line but didn't say a word. I opened my eyes and kept staring at Sam, not knowing what to do or what to look at because I did not want to look at him.

The person sat down beside me and flung his arm across my shoulders, and I grew tense while I continued to stare at Sam. "Awww, do I make you nervous," he sneered with a small look of glee in his voice.

I didn't say a word and pressed my lips into a thin line. My bottom lip quivered, and it took all of my self-control not to burst into tears.

Useless, Mutt... the stupid voice sneered. You can't even stand up to a bully even with being an Alpha.

Leave me alone, I said, my voice barely above a whisper and sounding weak. My heart ached and pounded hard and fast while my whole body started to shake. Please. I didn't do anything to you.

You exist.

The voice paused and let that sink in, and my heart ached.

That is what you did to me.

"Are you ignoring me?" he asked and jabbed me hard in the ribs, and I flinched but didn't give him the satisfaction to see me cry. "You know that I don't like being ignored, Little Tommy Baby."

I didn't say a word and gulped, biting the inside of my lip harder until I tasted blood. Tears pricked the edges of my vision, and I looked at the table, not able to look at Sam any longer.

But I didn't ask to be born...

"Awwww. Are you going to cry, now?" he asked and pouted while he batted his eyelashes together. "Do you want me to make you cry? I can make you cry."

The food in front of me shifted while he grabbed the tray and moved it closer to the edge of the table.

"Just say the word, and I will stop," he said, his voice becoming singsongy, much to my annoyance and grief.

I shifted in my seat and cleared my throat. "Stop," I said, my voice barely above a whisper and quivered ever so slightly. "Please, leave me alone."

"Awww, you are about to cry," he cooed. "Where is your daddy, now? I see that he didn't do anything to me like you said he would."

That is because you are weak and didn't tell them anything, the voice sneered. Keep not telling them anything and show them how weak you are. You will never be a good Alpha.

I didn't say a word and kept staring at the tray that slowly continued to move back and forth with each passing second.

"Maybe I should do something else to teach you a lesson," he said gleefully and stopped the plate of food at the edge of the table, and my heart stopped and skipped a beat. "Did you bring another set of clothes?"

I didn't...

I didn't say a word, and my heart started to pound fast and hard in my chest while I stared at the food, knowing full well that it would not be in my best interest to try and move the food away from him because I knew that he would hit me and then dump the food on me if I did so.

"Come on, Tommy Boy," he sneered. "You have to be able to say something."

Wimp... the stupid voice said. Cry baby. Go ahead and cry. No one is going to save you, not even your little Sammy will be able to help. She doesn't even want to help. She left.

My heart dropped to the pit of my stomach when the voice said that, and I looked toward where Sam had been sitting.

And like the voice said, Sam was not there... She was nowhere to be seen.

My heart ached and became filled with sadness.

Maybe she didn't care about me...

And that is what I keep telling you, the voice said gleefully. She doesn't care about you at all. If she did, then she would still be there.

"What are you looking a- Oh, look, your best friend has left, Tommy Boy," he said gleefully. "It looks like your best friend has left you. What are you going to do about it?"

I didn't respond and didn't move. I had no idea what Sam was doing or if she was doing something for me. I just didn't know.

And all I could do was feel alone and scared because I had no idea what he wanted to do with me but I knew that Sam wouldn't be there to stop it or to help me feel better in a way that only she could...