𝐒𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐞 | ᴋᴏᴏᴋᴠ

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Taehyung bursted into tears as soon as he reached his bathroom with no attendants there. Why the hell was he crying? He knew he shouldn't cry like this. Crying like this was just making him more mad, mad at himself. In front him a huge mirror stood tall which seemed like a mockery to him. A mirror that was reflecting his misery. He wanted to bury himself here. He was feeling the guilt of hurting Jungkook. His omega was growing crazier by every passing moment for hurting the alpha. The guilt was making his heart ache so bad that he found himself struggling to breath. At the same time his heart was also aching for another reason that he didn't even want to admit to himself.

His mark..., that shamed him too much at this point..., felt like it was literally set on fire, it just burned that bad. He wished that he could get rid of this thing. Tears rolled down his eyes in pure pain and some type of guilt. He desperately smacked some water onto his face to regulate his breathing and collect his mind. After feeling somewhat collected, he chose to run a bath for himself. He wasn't used to it but needless to say didn't want any of the attendants to see his misery like this so he just stayed there alone, alone till his tears and sobs stop.

Taehyung felt himself shaking into consciousness as he realized he was just getting some weird flashbacks turned into his dream, or maybe nightmare. " ...Disgusting huh... " He tsked out in some kind of annoyance he couldn't explain. Thinking how he couldn't even peacefully sleep because of that weirdly 'useless' flashbacks just made him more mad. This bond was leading him to insanity he swore.

" I'm sorry. " He almost jumped out of the bed in pure fear. Immediately turning around, he found a figure right behind him. His bedroom had little to no light in it so he couldn't even see the face of the figure. Still somehow he knew exactly who the hell it was. Some parts of him felt relief wash over him as other parts of him just felt the anger reignite in him. " WHY ARE YOU- " He stopped himself once he realized he was just yelling when he wasn't supposed to. Clearing his throat, he properly turned around so they could face each other to talk. He didn't even want to know why the hell was he here at this point.

" Sorry for what? " He asked out, purely feigning his confusion as if he hasn't already cried his eyes out for this matter. " Don't put on such act. I know that you know. I couldn't even walk out of there like you did even if I wanted to... " The alpha with a still raw scar spoke. " Well... I don't really care about.... Any of that. So your explanation and apology are very uncalled for...... " Taehyung mumbled out with his eyes closed. Each time he looked at the scar, something in him wanted to throw himself out of the window to end himself.

Soon few minutes of silence took place between them. " .....I don't care either but..... I thought the mark might have caused you.... Some trouble with that. " The alpha's word just made him feel worse now. So the apology was just for the sake of the bond or whatever?, made sense to him. " .......Good thing.... It didn't... Probably only the mates who act like mates get that kind of reaction.... Thankfully you don't have to worry about that. It's good that you finally found someone who was actually willing to take care of a mess like you. "  The omega mumbled out with a forced laugh that he desperately wished wasn't caught by the alpha.

" But the mess you created can only be fixed by you. "

Taehyung's gaze shot up straight to meet Jungkook's as his words sank in him in some 'weird way'. " This one..... " The alpha attempted to clarify while pointing at the raw scar on his blank face. Finally, that seemed to give the omega some relief. The room was almost dark, the light was just enough for him to see the latter. " I did the right thing. Your simple natural act could have ended our months of pretentious act's effect. What would people think if I let you go near him without causing a scene huh? Had to fake it, had to put on an a- act. " The omega let out while letting out a small cackle as if he wasn't miserable in Yoonji's arms few hours ago.

His words somehow earned a cackle from the alpha too. " Never knew you had such talent. " Jungkook mumbled out with a sigh. " Natural. Tell me about Leehan's talent. " He let out with a sigh. His raging pheromones and scent were about to give him away, he knew that too well. " I only noticed so much that I may miss to mention some- " " Keep it to yourself. I don't want to hear it anymore. I'm sorry. " The omega spoke as he put up a hand to tell the alpha to stop talking. He knew this behaviour would get the alpha mad but surprisingly the alpha really was committed to being nice to him.

" Couldn't care less about the wound. Feels good to see you apologize though, never knew I would come across such scene. " Jungkook's word made him want to punch him but he thought he could be nice too. " Does that hurt? " He asked innocently while he brought his hand to the wound and intentionally put pressure on it. The familiar feeling of wanting to throw himself out of the window came back but he did that anyway. He wanted to give the alpha some of the pain that he felt earlier. The warlord's eyebrows only met once before his face returned back to his blank expression. " No. Now it feels better. " The alpha hummed out as he closed his eyes as if he was finally in peace. Taehyung couldn't help but roll his eyes at that.

How could THAT feel good to him?, he was left to wonder to himself because he didn't want to give the alpha any piece of his curiosity. " I just know this is going to leave a fat ugly scar on your face. " He muttered out with his hand still on his face. Jungkook just hummed along as if he had already made peace with that fact, as if it didn't mean anything to him. It did mean a lot to Taehyung though, the guilt was eating his insides. He did this unintentionally but still he felt some type of guilt boiling inside of him. He did feel a tiny bit better after seeing the alpha was..... okay.

" You should be thanking me for making you uglier and creepier than you already were. Leehan seems to be into that. " The omega muttered out with a hint of sarcasm in his tone. " I'm so tired............. " The alpha breathed out with his eyes still closed as if he completely ignored whatever Taehyung said prior to this. " .....Go to sleep then.... " He mumbled out as he was removing his hand from the alpha's face to turn around. Before he could a hand landed on the top of his. For some reason Jungkook's hand didn't let him remove his hand from his face. Taehyung looked at the alpha's indifferent face only to get no elaboration offered to him.

.....For some reason even he didn't insist on moving his hand. So in silence, Taehyung chose to leave his hand there as he closed his own eyes to get some of his own sleep. Jungkook was never so peaceful, maybe it was just another dream he had to sleep through... Maybe once he woke up, there would no longer be the alpha laying down beside him.

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Taehyung got aware of his surroundings once he was finally awake. He lazily stretched his arms out while slowly blinking away the light that was almost attacking his eyes through the curtains. He moved a little to the side, only to find out that Jungkook was still sleeping like a baby right beside him. His tiredness was apparent to Taehyung now with that frown Jungkook had on his face. He couldn't but chuckle at the sight.

Even though he wouldn't like to admit it, he got one of the best sleep ever last night. He didn't feel tired at all now... The alpha's scent and pheromones felt just like a warm cozy blanket that was  wrapped around him. It felt so nice. It made him feel so comfortable and at home. The smile on his face soon did turn into a frown as something in his mind had to ruin the vibe, it reminded him how he shouldn't get attached to this ' cozy blanket ' because sooner or later he would have to let go of this.

Jungkook probably had nowhere to be today that's why he came to Taehyung out of pity to make sure everything was fine with him., he tried to give himself that reason at least. Maybe that was why he was sleeping till this late of the morning. He had never seen the alpha sleep in for this long since their marriage. The scar on the alpha's face looked better than how he saw it last night, which was good, it made him feel less guilty than he was feeling yesterday.

This wouldn't happen only if he knew how to control his own omega self and emotions, he thought so to himself.

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