A Thousand Times Enough

* Chapter 43 *

XLIII. • °

Silas Pov

I couldn't sleep last night, all I could do was toss and turn. Seeing Josie did help me yesterday and the pain that I felt faded when I held her, but when I came home it felt like hell. I had wasted time at the bookstore, cleaning up and just sitting there, it almost felt as if I was sitting with Eva.

Maybe that's why I stayed so long, when I got home that evening I went straight to my room. I didn't bother to see if my dad was even at home, but I knew he wasn't.

This started to happen when I turned fourteen, a little after Eva's death my dad barely came home. Of course, I had questions but my mom just said he was a busy man, very busy.

It wasn't like we had any family time for me to miss anyway, anytime we had family time before was because of Eva. She sort of reminds me of Nadia in a way, she was always a planner and such a beam of light.

I think that's why Nadia is such a sister to me, I remember when I first met her. I think we were freshmen at this time, I bet she remembers every detail.

When me and Damon saw her she looked so bored but tried to put on a happy face while she sat on the couch while the other kids were mingling and getting to know each other. I felt intrigued at the time, I wanted to know why she would come if she didn't want to.

But she ended up telling me and Damon that she was only there to support her dad, but looking back on it maybe it was to spend time with him. And she never complained no matter how bored she might have been. That is why I'm glad she and Josie met, they needed a friendship like they have now. And Tessa, was just a part of it even though she knew Nadia first.

I'm not gonna say that I don't like her, but I kinda don't. I put up with her for the sake of the group. When I first met her due to Nadia bringing her around one day, she seemed cool. We all got along, but it wasn't long for me and the guys to figure out what kind of girl she was.

We knew she slept around, but we never spoke about it. It just became a norm for her to disappear at parties with a random guy she just met, or for her to get drunk and argue with some random girl. Like I said before, it became a norm.

But I don't care what she did, as long as everyone that we came with left out safely. I grabbed what I was wearing for the day and got dressed, I was up bright and early. I was going to be riding with Damon to school today.

I didn't feel like driving and plus because of my lack of sleep it was safe that I didn't drive. I grabbed my keys and exited my bedroom and I went outside to wait.

Shortly after I saw Damon's grey Dodge Durango pull into my neighborhood, as I stepped off my porch it wasn't long before I saw who was in the front seat. "Wassup," I say opening the car door and getting in.

"No Kobe get in the back," Damon instructed.

"What, why do I have to get in the back?"

"Because I've had enough of you already."

"Bruh I didn't even do anything."

"You didn't?"

"What's going on?" I cut in trying to keep from laughing.

"What's going on? Well, everything was going good until this dipshit started yelling at me, almost making me crash by the way. But he started yelling at me to pull over because he saw a damn cat in the road."

"Aye it wasn't just a cat, it was a kitten somebody could have hit it then how would you feel dude?"

"Nobody was going to hit anything, the damn thing has more brains than you do."