There I was, alone and inebriated, drowning in my sorrows with swollen eyes and quiet sobs until a voice interrupted my anguish. "Valerie, what is the matter? Have you been weeping?"asked my sister with concern. I concealed my face from her because no one knew; nobody had any inkling that I was crying for Her. "Dear,"said my sister again, "get up! The wedding is about to begin and everyone is searching for you."With trembling legs, I rose to stand but lost balance, tripping over myself in the process. Anticipating a fall as if it were inevitable, I shut my eyes only to open them once more when met by the worried gaze of my beautiful best friend- or should I say love of my life, who held me tightly as if preventing me from plummeting into an abyss, which indeed felt like where I was headed. Taking time out of this dazed state, I gazed at every feature on her visage; button nose, perfect jawline, silky blonde hair, tanned skin, full pink lips, oh...and those glossy sparkling orbs that looked like they were on the brink of tears. Suddenly coming back to reality,I panicked never wanting to see her cry . "What's wrong princess? Are you alright?" In spite of being just an ordinary girl, she still remained royalty in front of me..
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Immediately concerned, I abruptly cupped her cheeks but my princess looked the other side obviously mad at me by the way she was avoiding my gaze. "Sky I didn't mean to get drunk I'm sorry, I'm jus... I'm....." Words got stuck into my throat and instead my emotions got the better of me, sobbing out of exhaustion was my only escape route. I don't know if it was the liquor on my head or the wavering emotions I had at that moment but I felt the need to cry for I was heartbroken. Startled by my whimpers, she turned to look at me and cupped my cheeks like I did to hers a few moments back. "Hey honey, I'm not mad at you, just a little bit disappointed, come here and please don't cry." I found myself into her embrace crying like a baby.
Truth is bitter but I was aware of the fact that I was going to lose her, I was very aware of that bitter truth. But what could I have done, disclosing my feelings to her! That I had immense feelings towards her not just as a friend but even more was out of my options. I knew if I did, she'd resent me, she'd never ever want to look at me. I didn't want her to hate me for I was so deep in love with her, the unnatural kind of love according to my society standards. That exact moment, in her embrace is what I loved the most, I didn't want it to ever end, I felt safe, like I had hung the moon and the sun, felt like I could breath again. Unfortunately good things tend to end quickly because my princess broke the embrace so that she could have a good look into my swollen red eyes, kissed my cheek freezing me into place, I thought I was seeing stars and it seemed like the angels had descended from heaven because apparently I was seeing one of them standing right in front of me.
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"....... earth to Valerie, are you even listening to me?" I left my dazed state to have a good look at her, and the beauty she possessed was beyond this universe, she was so beautiful that I could easily get lost into her eyes if I wasn't careful enough. "I was saying that I love you and you shouldn't get drunk today because you're aware that it's a very special day to me." I got reminded of my sorrow by the husky beautiful voice of my princess that drove me insanely crazy every moment. "I love you too Sky and I'm sorry for getting drunk." I apologized for my behavior even though I craved for more alcohol into my system. I wished she knew that I loved her more than just a friend. "I'm just a little bit out of it but nothing to worry about." I reassured her. Someone cleared their throat, that's when I remembered that my sister had been watching the whole scene.
Straightening myself, I wanted to pose like nothing happened as I looked at my not so happy sister. "Since you're all done being lovey-dovey with each other, I think we should get going because everyone is waiting for us," Said my sister in a bored voice.
If wishes were horses, even beggars could ride. The way I wished that the wedding didn't have to take place was beyond your imagination. Don't get me wrong, I loved my best friend and I wished what's best for her but still I was a little bit selfish for I wanted her for myself. I wanted time to delay, I wished I had superpowers so that I could freeze time, I wanted her to be with me for the rest of our lives not with him, I wished I had the audacity to tell her how it was killing me, the thought of her staying with someone who was not me was daunting at me, I wished someone knew about my feelings for her, but I couldn't tell anyone because they'd think I was an abomination, they'd think I was evil and spoilt, they'd curse me and all my descendants if they let me have one at all. I looked between my best friend and my sister and motioned them to lead the way.
